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2011-03-20T02:43:00.000-07:00

Why am I always put through so many tests in life??

Christmas eve!!

2010-12-23T17:35:00.000-08:00

I woke up this morning feeling a little weird because everything seem to have pass soo quickly that its Christmas eve today.. YOSH!!! I completed 2 major field camps and life will be much easier after that.. :).. Really am shock that this week field camp goes by soo swiftly.. And as promised of not meeting my friends for 1 month, I have finally gotten th time to meet them.. :) Cannot wait to see them ltr, and tmr.. :)..

I got confinement on mon!! -.-! Darn it.. Blame it on luck or what.. Oo well, at least go in early to wash my stuffs.. Hope its just a day thing and not 3 days!! 2 days for being an arm skote IC and 1 day for not signing out the book.. Plus I feel really bad to get those innocent guys involved because they dont even know whats going on.. They were being told that they got confined for no reason..

I read book saying that to feel not soo worried abt something, you got to think abt the worst thing that may happen and just accept the fact that ur life will continue.. It really help me alot because I am mentally prepared for the consequences.. oO well, 1 more month to end of service term.. :)

A new year is starting soon.. Way too soon.. And you are leaving soon too le.. Just hope time will pass much slower soo I can have spend more time with you.. just have to wait for 2 years right.. I am sure time will pass much faster once I have gotten my 1 black bar rank.. Tekan ppl.. heh heh heh.. XD.. Oops.. :X

Season of giving!!.. :)

2010-12-12T06:51:00.000-08:00

Its December!! The favourite month of the year and Christmas is coming!! I dont know why, but I loved Christmas.. I love it more than any other public holidays.. Maybe its the Santa Claus and present thing that makes me happy though I now know that it does not exist.. hahas.. It is the season of giving, the season of caring, the season for love, and also the season for snow.. :).. I really hope that guard duty will fall on 27th of dec rather than 24th.. I rather spend Christmas on 24th than 25th.. 24th has the Christmas feel instead of 25th.. Maybe its the countdown bah.. Please please please, guard duty fall on 27th!?!?! :x.. Also, hope I do not misfire or loss any equipments during live firing and field camp.. I dont wanna burn my precious weekends and holidays!! XD

Just saw the schedule for the entire service term.. 5 more weeks to go.. Just this 5 more weeks then I will be in professional term.. Wow, time really pass real fast.. Just 3 more weeks of tough training and life will be much easier for me.. Besides, I have 2 awesome holidays to look forward too.. :).. Its ironic that I want to have my 12 days of leave and not wanting to go to infantry.. I dont know what vocation I will enter to in the future.. I really hope it will be a much relax one though.. hahas.. oO well, its 11pm already.. Gotta slp now.. Nights.. :)

You are beautiful, you have a sunshine smile, you give me strength to carry on my shitty NS life, you make me look forward to book out, you make everyday that I spend with you feel so meaningful to me.. Overall, you make me feel at ease being around you.. :)..

2010-12-08T13:44:00.001-08:00

Just when I thought we are suppose to fall in at 545am.. When its 615am that we are to fall in.. -.-!! Oo well.. At least I got some extra free time for myself.. XD.. What a happening 10 days field camp man!! Seriously, I dont know if we offended anything or what, my group was really unlucky.. From day 2 till day day 7, we been either losing things, misfiring or losing ppl!! hahas.. Day 2 lost antenna, day 3 misfire, day 4 lost smoke grenade, day 5 lost magazine which contain ammunition, almost lost assualt pack. day 6 nvr lose anyone, but we lost 1 man during our night mission.. We were walking walking walking and suddenly, 7 men became 6 men after we realised it.. hahas.. And day 7, the joke of the day, we lost our sir.. hahas.. And since then we broken the record of losing the most things and causing alot of problems to our sir.. Our sir is a very nice person, and for him to flare up is really shocking not only to us, but to other sir.. Guess any gd guy can snap anytime bah.. out of 7 men, 4 men got charged for these mistakes.. :X.. Record of the year again.. XD.. Oo well, hope I wont commit any of these mistakes next week and next next week so that I can celebrate Christmas with my loved ones.. :)..

Really misses my family and you who are always reading this blog (you know who you are).. XD.. Suddenly thought of my past, how I dint cherish my time with my family, how time pass soo swiftly that its the end of the year soon, and I remembered in January that I thought this year was a really unlucky year for me because I lose 3 loved ones, 2 from my family, and 1 of my cprimary sch friend.. And many things happened this year, many new life kind of scenario.. Finished Poly, working, NS, all within a year.. And lastly, being with you.. :).. Field camp is not something I like, but once you been through it, you really appreciate the things around you more, for some days la.. XD.. But not having a hp with you feels soo weird, and yet there's nth you can do at night except to slp.. hahas..

Theres soo many things I wanna do when I book out, wanna eat when I book out, wanna watch movies when I book out, but time is a little too tight for me now.. Just another 2 more weeks for that I have to endure.. oO well.. As long as I have my phone I guess I will be just fine.. :) Ok, gotta go fall in now.. Ciao!~

2010-11-26T23:11:00.000-08:00

2 more days to field camp.. its not really the field camp that I am concern off.. Its rather the not allowed to bring in any luxurious items.. -.-! That suxs.. I will be like totally cut off from the world, again.. Oo well, 10 days shld pass quite pass, I think.. :X Heard some gd news abt the field camp, only 3 days in slping out in the field, the rest shld have proper beds to slp in.. :).. Means can at least bathe.. :D.. And there's a day off for us to rest and relax.. soo it shld be only 9 days of camp..

Oo well, at least I have a day to enjoy before I book in.. And i hope time can pass slowly this time.. *pray...

:)~

2010-11-22T06:56:00.001-08:00

Just a good night sleep and everything will be better tmr.. :)

tired~

2010-11-21T01:28:00.000-08:00

Time flew by and now its my 6th week in OCS.. Left another 8 more.. I just need to endure the next 5 weeks and things will go smoothly after that.. Think I became quite immune to the NS life and also quite crazy about it.. -.-.. No wonder they say u will get brain washed.. You just automatically get brain wash.. hahas..

Field camp week is starting in 1 week time.. *gulp.. feeling a little immune and yet sucky.. Oo well, just 10 days right.. We been through this before, I guess 10 days wont be that bad bah.. :X.. Hope I dont anyhow misfire and cause my weekend to be burn.. *yikes!!..

Book in~

2 White Bar!!

2010-10-23T17:02:00.000-07:00

Today is the day I have up my rank to 2 white bar.. :D.. So that means service term begans and so it also means hell has started.. :X.. Soo theres a turn out as expected from our seniors.. I thought we will do lots of push ups, funny kind of exercise or what.. I was soo wrong.. hahas.. Just go back up cange clothes, change again.. Though we dint hit the timing our seniors gave us, but they dint even punish us or anything.. The standards here have really drop.. But also good la.. wahahas.. :D

I dint get to Air force, or Navy NSF.. Wahahas.. Just not my luck.. But luckily I dint get to Alpha.. Phew.. And best of all, I am not in Hotel for my 9 months of OCS.. Greatest luck ever.. I am now in Tango Wing.. :D.. I heard that we will be there for only 3 months instead of 9, which is only our service term and not professional term.. There may be a chance for us to be support wing and not infantry.. HENG ARH~! Please please, let me go unit.. No infantry!! hahas.. I wonder what's tango culture?? Hmm..

Wil be having Parents visiting day ltr.. :D.. I feel soo happy to be able to see my parents.. I also feel like a prisoner too.. Everyone is out there enjoying, and I stuck here blogging.. hahas.. Waiting for people to visit me.. oO well, at least today is going to be another relax day.. :D.. 5 more days to book out day!!.. :D Ciao~!

LOFT!!

2010-10-17T18:05:00.001-07:00

I miss those times in LOFT.. Even though I was poor and could not buy much snacks
I miss those times in LOFT.. Even though exams were tmr, we will still playing pool, drinking alocohol, recording the stupid things we done..
I miss those times in LOFT.. The freedom feeling that I like..
I miss those times in LOFT.. Even though I fell sick every week..
I miss those times in LOFT.. I can sleep late and wake up later too..
I miss those times in LOFT.. The days we went shopping for steamboat and had steamboat together
I miss those times in LOFT.. The time where we were studying soo hard like our life was on the line..
I miss those times in LOFT.. Even though I could not sleep well almost every night..

All in all, I miss everyone and everything in LOFT.. :(

Quick Post

2010-10-17T01:14:00.001-07:00

Blogging from camp.. hehe.. 3 weeks confinement period.. Left 2 more weeks.. Cnt wait for next sunday.. My family will be coming.. Shall ask my sis to buy double cheese burger for me.. And some soft drinks.. I miss tasting them.. XD.. And also seeing my family.. If can bring my dog, Amy, that will be better.. :D.. Weird, I actually miss my dog.. hahas..

Come on Air force, take me in.. XD.. Cnt wait for next sunday, to know where will I be posted to.. Plz plz plz plz plz plz.. I promise I will train hard.. :X

I can imagine myself getting bulker by the rate this training is going.. Everyday pull up, then go jog for long distance.. And did 1000 situps.. I practically isnt able to laugh now, cause my abs hurt.. :X.. Soo my laughing will be like hur hur hur (silent).. -.-!.. My Sir grew alot heavier during his OCS days.. from 50kg to 62 kg.. Waa!! And my weight increase again.. 0.0!! Soo I think I will shoot up to 60+kg after 9 months.. *faint..

Cut off from the world..

2010-07-26T00:19:00.000-07:00

Its been donkey years since I last blogged.. hahas.. But what can I say?? Many things happened.. learned new things, heard many things, experience new things.. Life mah.. hahas.. This will be a last post before I enter NS.. And I dont know if I will keep on blogging like I do.. hahas..

I used to fear for the change in humans in the future, the change towards evil for men.. And because I am both, there is enough reasons that I could change suddenly.. Thats why I fear myself being in NS.. I worry I changed for the worst.. But someone woke me up by saying having principles in life.. Gosh, its been like ancient since I have principles in life and acted towards it.. But yap, I am gonna give another shot in this.. Soo I wont make another mistake in my life again.. I wont learn smoking, gambling, tattooing, dying of hair, visit indecent places, swearing, and try my best not to drink alcohol :X..

Suddenly I am not soo fearful of myself in the future.. Maybe its because I believe in myself and know that I can do it and I am not like the other humans.. hahas.. But if I somehow broke my principles, could you scold me, whack me and wake me up?? And show me back to my path of righteousness?? Hahas..

I am starting to accept my new life of being in NS for 2 years.. After endless encouragement and moral support, I guess it is not that bad after all.. 2 years is nothing compare to the 20 years that I am gone through since birth.. hahas.. Singapore!! I owe you my 2 years due to the good country that I am born in.. hahas.. But that still does not mean that I like NS!! or agree that everyone shld go NS.. Just looking it at a positive way since I have no choice but to enter.. hahas..

Till then, Hope you guys get into ur Unis and study hard.. For those working, work hard.. And everyone play hard.. Dont change too much.. At least for the worst.. Change for the better is good la.. hahas.. Cya!~

2010-06-30T04:01:00.001-07:00

Sometimes fantasy hunts me.. :(

2010-06-29T07:31:00.000-07:00

I thought about something last night.. That if I regretted anything in the past?? I am sure most of you guys will.. And I do.. But until yesterday, I saw the big picture of everything, and felt really for once that everything happens for a reason.. :)..

I dint study for PSLE an ended up in a neighbourhood school..

I did not study hard till sec 2 and stuffs

I did not enjoy my internship

And many others too..

But as you see, if I did study hard for PSLE, maybe in the future I might not study well enough and be where I am now. If I did not learn the hardship and cruelty of working, I will never upgrade my mindset and the way of doing things.. If I did not suffer that despair, I will never learn soo much thing about life.. And I am glad things turn out in a way where it is a happy ending.. So far.. :)..

I need to reason things out with myself..

2010-06-28T07:11:00.000-07:00

If the world is a safe place.. I wanna drive all over the world.. Just a car, a guitar and a person beside me.. :X.. hahas.. But because sometimes the world seems soo scary due to robbers, thieves, and other bad crimes.. It made me wonder if I am able to do this in life.. Hmm..

Jia You TC!!! 2 more months only!!

2010-06-27T10:45:00.001-07:00

Just wanted to say "Hiaz"..

2010-06-26T11:02:00.000-07:00

Finally!! Its over.. :).. Dint get first, but we really did our best.. At least I tried.. hahas.. Oo well, next year I guess.. Shld have join the mix open.. only 2 competitors!! And 1 of them fall down the water.. -.-!!

Free again!! Also bored.. crap.. Think got to go see sensei for my wrist again.. -.-!! Acupuncture!! Means GG liao.. :X.. Yikes, always hate needles man..

Hmm, what shld I do next week?? hmm....

2010-06-24T21:55:00.000-07:00

Yes!! My internet is ok after dinosaur years!! hahas.. it is much faster than before.. Wahahas.. :D..

Crap!! Tmr's the competition, my friend passed by the venue but the obstacles is still the same.. Dont think they will be changing it.. *yikes!! Soo worried about tmr..

Watched abit of the world cup last night.. Its getting really lousy I will say.. -.-! The way they play.. All not honest, anyhow slide, anyhow say here pain there pain.. -.-! And the strong teams aint that strong anymore.. But I guess the people are really pressured especially when ur fans out there have high hopes on you.. For shooting in the goal, for saving an easy ball.. But you just dint manage to do it.. I know how it feels.. 1 word.. SUX!!

2010-06-22T11:41:00.000-07:00

I am really kinda piss off at the way that you used me.. Theres really a limit to how much I can take.. Dont lie to me saying you need me to be there, but the fact is to help you pay your bills and to accompany you when theres no one left to accompany you.. Be a little more independent can?? I need to be more direct and just shoot these things to you..

Cant wait for 2 more years..

2010-06-22T02:18:00.000-07:00

think i must be too bored blogging twice on a same day.. :X..

I finally read finished the book titled "have a little faith".. Awww.. Soo inspiring.. :).. When is he gonna released another book?? Hmm..

Crap!~ The fastest timing for VUA is 2min 36 sec.. -.-!.. WHY!?!?! Suddenly got a good team.. NOO!!! Why no 2nd prize??? Hiaz.. I hate competition!! :X..

A step at a time.. walking away from a baby's sleep.. :)

2010-06-21T19:02:00.000-07:00

Hey Hey Heys!! Have not been blogging for some time.. Hmm, lets see my past activity..

We have done well in Velocity Urban Attack(VUA) guys.. Now its left with the finals.. Pray we will get first and $2000 cash will be ours.. :D.. Ok, now I gotta train hard on my muscles in every part of my body.. But Im lazy.. :X.. hahas..

"Have a little faith" by Mitch Albom.. Oo well, gotta admit the starting part was kinda boring.. But I hold on to it and continue reading.. Now, the middle part is interesting.. It did answer some of my qns I had in the past regarding commitment and others.. Thats the awesome thing about books.. Sometimes it just solve your doubts you had in the past.. :)..

You know when you have either cancer or are old now.. You tend to enjoy life in a different way.. Not thinking about money, meeting up with friends, taking a sTroll at your house downstairs.. I dont see anyone doing that when they are in their teens, when they are adults.. Its like we got to go through the phase of working hard, which causes us to lose our fun side and alot of other good things as well.. I wished that my working life is over and here I am now retiring.. Hiaz..

I told myself that money isnt everything.. To not work soo hard to get a big house, a big car, etc.. just something affordable and comfortable to sleep in can le.. More money means more headache.. But I have to admit that at times peer pressure may affect me.. Seeing my friends working soo hard, just makes me feel that I should too.. But for no reason -.-.. Seeing ppl go to college does not mean I must go to college.. I have been thinking about that for some time.. Maybe I have been influence to go to college by some ppl.. But the thing is if I just work save money and retire early.. Why the hell do I need a degree?? Studying for the things that I may not like?? That I may not be working towards that course that I am studying.. Why not have a family and enjoy the life I have always fantasize from books and movies.. :)..

Toy story 3 was great.. 1 of the best cartoons I have ever watched.. :).. Simple and yet soo meaningful.. Awww.. Nothing stays the same forever, we just have to move on.. And that sucks!! :P..

Dont get influence Andrew!!

My Australia Trip!!.. :D

2010-06-18T09:53:00.000-07:00

Ok, finally I can use the internet.. But its not really that stable at times.. -.-.. Oo well, try my best..

Australia was a really wide eye opener for me.. I did alot of 1st time experience and see many things for the 1st time too..

(1) I went to Australia for the 1st time (the furthest country I have been :X)

(2) I played tobogunning (sand sliding at the desert)

(3) I touched and see a dolphin with my whole eyes and hands :D

(4) I went to movie world and dream world and sat a 119m (39 storey) ride down.. *my soul was stuck up there.. -.-

(5) I saw a kangaroo and kola bear for the 1st time

(6) Went in a casino for the first time

(7) Felt cold weather like 11 degrees for the first time

(8) Saw a liger and then a tiger shit in front of my eyes.. LIVE!!! Wahahahs

(9) Saw a beautiful scenery (other than Singapore) for my first time.. :D

And many more

Hope to show you the wonderful pics I have taken, but internet is giving me a big headache.. :x

Reason I love Australia

(1) People are polite (They keep using words like please, thank you, excuse me, instead of eh, and being rude)

(2) Strangers can just talk to you

(3) Service is good :D

(4) Weather is cooling :D

(5) 1 out of 10 people smoke

(6) Much cleaner than Singapore

(7) Sky is super blue

(8) Not much stress in work and education

(9) See smiling faces more than sad faces

(10) The busker there are very friendly and entertaining.

(11) I am able to see alot of different animals and birds that I dont get to see in Singapore

(12) I am able to do much more different stuffs that I dont get to do in Singpore.. Topogunnin!!! hahas.. 4WD!! (4 wheel drive)

Reasons I dislike Australia

(1) Water is expensive 3.80 Aus for a 500ml water??

(2) Food is ex.. -.- Much ex than singapore hawker centre

(3) Their S size is Singapore L size.. So I got to go to the kids department to find my clothing.. -.-

(4) Their taxi fare increase 10 cents every 3 secs or around 50m.. -.-.. Thats insane!!!

(5) I am not used to their timing there.. 2 hours later than Singapore, and it turn dark at 5.30pm (Aus).. And thats soo early!!!!!

In conclusion, I really enjoyed my trip in Australia.. I find the culture there is very different than in Singapore, I was always smiling, not feeling bored (unlike Singapore), I really love the people there.. :D How the way they talk to strangers.. so politely and yet soo forever smiling.. It really change my mindset about the world, and I am definitely going to move to Europe 1 day.. :D.. It just confirm the things that I needed to know..

See my pics in FB bah.. hahas

I miss Aussie.. :(

2010-06-16T02:57:00.000-07:00

1 more day!! Actually just a few more hours till i board the plan and fly straight home. Got alot of things to blog.. but I will save that when I get back.. hahas.. 1 word.. FUN!!.. :D.. But I dont know if I can sleep late and wake up late in Singapore?? Everyday I sleep at 11pm and wake up at 5-6am(Singapore time).. Insane right?? Australia time.. Not use to it.. :X..

Dont feel like working the whole of june.. I shall see how for July.. I just wanna rest.. :X.. Think I should cancel my promise for working at Jay Chou concert.. XD.. hahas.. Life is already soo short.. Why do I wanna work and see other people life when I can sit back at home and enjoy my life.. :D.. hahas.. We shall see how.. :X

Jet lag!!! ZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzz..

2010-06-14T04:11:00.000-07:00

Hi hi!! Finally having the time to use internet and blog.. The internet here is soo ex!! 2 Aus for 10 mins?? You got to be kidding.. The cheapest I found was 5 Aus for an hour.. -.-''' Soo I will update more when I come back to Singapore. :)

There is really a time difference here in Aus.. The time is 2 hours faster than Singapore.. Soo now is 9pm Aus while Singapore is 7pm.. But guess what? By 5.30pm(Aus time), the sky turns dark!! Its like 3.30pm in Singapore, and its time to go home and sleep.. Hahas.. I am soo not use to it!!..

Oo well, update more when I return.. :D

Aus Aus Aus!! :D

2010-06-08T10:22:00.001-07:00

I guess I must learn things the hard way.. :X

Out of control!~

2010-06-06T01:55:00.000-07:00

My internet is down, but lucky I am in my friend house.. hehe.. :P..

Rules.. I hate them.. Hate to follow it.. Why are there rules in the first place?? If everyone were discipline enough, there is no need to have rules.. Because in the end, there is no fix rules.. You cannot be possibly following rule like a military guy with no heart.. But, if there isn't any rules, we will be not know whats the correct way, or wrong way of things.. We will be clueless if we are allowed to do things or not..

Sometimes being controlled and not having a choice to do anything seems soo irritating.. But when we are giving the choice to choose what we wanna study in life?? where we wanna stay?? Work what?? Who your gf/bf is gonna be?? Etc.. Some of us are just lost.. Afraid that if we make the wrong choice, that's it.. Not entirely over.. But the time and effort you spend on your decision is wasted.. Though Zac told me its not the result.. But the process and the learning of it.. I cannot seem to accept his answer though.. :X..

Short term happiness.. A moment of angriness, A moment of sadness, A moment of jealousy, A moment of rush, A moment of love.. A short moment of happiness we get.. But it may cause a long term agony, a mistake once you really think about it.. I am blinded by the short happiness in life.. Which is my weak point.. No, I got to calm down and think properly.. And not let emotions get in the way..

I cannot stay still for more than 3 seconds.. I just realised that.. In my life.. I always got to move around.. During my primary school days.. I guess thats why I never really like to be committed to things.. I never commit to a CCA, to a Full time job, to a relationship, to a hobby, to Church, to anything.. Just plain thinking of it makes me feel like not doing anything..

Lazy~

2010-06-02T06:51:00.000-07:00

1 job down, 1 to go.. Will be working for showco tmr and fri.. And then I will rest all the way till after Australia.. :D

My colleague Ahmad never fails to put up a smile on my face no matter what.. hahas.. Met with him on Monday to celebrate Joel's an Izwan's new chapter of life.. hahas.. Oo wow, the place that Ahmad helped to setup their acoustic and video seems soo cosy and comfy.. I wanna sleep at there.. :D.. I hope my house will be like that in the future.. XD.. Imagine the amount of $$ I have to save before getting those average systems.. -.-''' Work like dog!! hahas..

Last week, when I enter a music shop and saw a violin, I couldnt help but think that someday I will learn how to play that.. Someday when I am more free and richer to go for courses.. hahas.. If a 70 year old man can learn art and craft.. why cant a 20+ year old guy learn violin?? And all other kind of instrument.. hahas.. But first.. I just got to find that motivation to bring me back the passion of music.. It just aint there yet.. :X.. Think its the hectic work that has changed me.. When I go NS, I hope I will find it back.. Somehow.. :X

I cnt help to feel that weirdness in it.. Is the differences in our personality that makes me feel that we have a hard time communicating.. Hope it wont be too awkward.. I guess in this world, if you cannot mix with someone, no matter how good, how decent he is.. You just cannot mix with him.. And there are quite alot of people I somehow am not able to communicate well.. when I mean communicate is not like talking "hi" or "bye".. Or some normal "how are you". but more than that.. like to be able to talk soo smoothly without having to think about a topic to talk about.. The things we like, the hobbies that we do.. are different.. I dont game, thats why I am not able to communicate to half of the world population.. hahas.. oO well.. We will see how it goes..

I dint realise that you were sitting beside me all along

2010-05-30T04:02:00.000-07:00

Some of us are left with few days, and the others a few more months before a new chapter of our lives begins.. :).. 2 more months for me ya?? Cnt wait to enter fast and see what post will I get in?? Hmm.. Some people have already predicted and expected me to get officer.. -.-''' oO plz.. not high expectations again from you guys.. hahas..

I almost forgot that there's something call scholarship.. Where there is a chance for my school fees to get paid by the school due to the outstanding academic results in poly.. Who would have thought about that?? Soo, I am placing my bet into it.. If my school fees are paid for free, I will go and study.. If not, then too bad lor.. Just get along with my life and work bah.. I dont really wanna loan money from banks, school and whatsoever.. I dont wanna be 30 to start finishing my debts and start having my luxurious life.. hahas.. I wanna enjoy it early.. :D.. And I dont mind if I dont really study, as long I enjoy my life, and get to tour around the world.. I am happy.. :D

I spent 20 years in Singapore, and will spend another 2 more years.. I think its good enough.. I wanna try to live out there.. Have a story to share like those people who never fails to make my eyes shine like little stars when I hear about their stories outside. But I dont really know how am I gonna live if I keep migrating here and there.. hahas.. Opps.. :X

At least I chatted with most of my friends and know what they are going to do.. Some are continuing with their degree but not into this line.. while some are going to work and continue this line.. oO.. Hope you guys dont regret the choices and steps you take.. :).. All the best to you guys..

2010-05-28T02:30:00.000-07:00

Finally a rest day for me.. Gosh!! Soo bored.. Dont feel like going out, nor work.. hahas.. K la, at least dont spend soo much.. Aftermath of working and hanging out = dead.. hahas..

Think I will work for another 2-3 times before just resting and waiting to go to Australia.. hahas.. Then after that, see how my schedule goes..

I like it when people prove others wrong (in a good way).. Like a guy wear his cap the wrong way, dressed in a plain shirt and jeans.. But when he perform.. It's just soo amazing that the other party just kept quiet.. hahas.. Yeah!! These ppl are truly amazing.. hahas.. But somewhere along being famous, ur appearance and dress sense is important.. -.-''' Hiaz, and you changed into another man.. oO well.. What can be done?? hahas.. I dont know, I just felt these people maybe they just wanted to do well and win the prize, and never thought about having the fans part..

I have been reading a book called "the last lecture". This guy has many wonderful stories and meaningful values behind it which makes me realise that actually my life has it too.. And I believe everyone has it too.. :).. But you just gotta find what value it is, and how it makes you stronger has a person.. Or what learning points did you learn.. hahas..

Hibernating in progress.. :)

I cannot believe I actually asked you that.. -.-'''

One time Experience

2010-05-27T10:08:00.000-07:00

It was a one time experience to be a gold medallist. It was a one time experience to deliver a speech.. It was a one time experience to be treated like a star and not a lowly crew.. It ws a one time experience that I get to eat special food from the rest (I dint eat).. It was a one time experience that almost all the lecturers, high rank ppl congratulate me and asked me about my future.. And it was a one time experience that I get to take soo many formal pics with others.. :).. Once is enough.. :D

Though I screwed up taking my prize and some parts of my speech.. But I guess it was some fear that I conquered within myself.. hahas.. And I guess it is not soo unlucky compared to other events happening outside, like reading a person name wrongly which sounds like a vulgar. hahas.. XD

I guess this is the one time that I make you proud of me in my entire life.. I know you are always comparing me with others, and wanting me to excel more though I have done not bad.. But at least I really worked hard and made you proud today.. :).. I know you want me to further my studies without worrying about the money issue.. But I just cnt help worrying abt it.. I hate the feeling of being in debt and living your life trying to clear the debts off.. Soo I will find my way out of this.. Dont wry.. :)

Crap!~.. Here goes nothing..

2010-05-26T11:25:00.000-07:00

Point the gun to my head.. *shoot!~

2010-05-25T13:50:00.000-07:00

1 more day.. OMG!! Time really flies and suddenly graduation is tmr.. :X.. My face is growing all the pimples due to the hectic work and lack of water.. -.-''' This is where cosmetics comes into play.. :X.. (wont put on la).. hahas..

I am really starting to doubt if my right hand is ever gonna recover.. I cannot even carry the flight case which I swore I was able to do it if my hand was is 100% perfect condition.. -.-''' I know it will be a very very long process of recovery, but I just cnt help but to feel worried and disappointed.. Hiaz.. Looks like I gotta rest more during June.. :(

A few more days till June and I shall stop working for about 2-3 weeks until I come back from Australia.. :).. Days are passing real fast.. hahas.. :D

If you think you could win me over.. Well, congratulations!! You succeeded.. XD

2010-05-24T09:03:00.001-07:00

Hohoho.. Lost 2 times in JB today.. But managed to come back alive and jumping around.. And!!! Dint damage the car!! hahas.. :D

Stomach full, legs tired, eyes tired, backside tired, everywhere tired.. Looks like I needa rest early man.. hahas.. XD

But happy I am man!! Travel around, getting lost, eatting till I cannot feel my stomach.. hahas.. Its just like those times.. It always was.. :D.. But these times are getting shorter and shorter.. Soon school will start, army will start, people will go overseas to study.. I hate to admit it.. But the thought of it sucks!!.. Still, I wanna thank you for being a part of my life.. :D

The only courage I had was to look at ur back..

195 Countries in this World

2010-05-22T07:42:00.000-07:00

This world is made out of 195 countries.. Wow.. I dint know that.. I wonder if any of those countries have the kind of country that i wanna live in..

(1) Nice scenery

(2) Town area

(3) Affordable housing

(4) Neighbours are friendly

(5) Low/No Crime rate

(6) No competitive in anything

(7) A limit of number of hours you can spend working in a day

(8) Low Tax.. :X

(9) Affordable cars

(10) Many cheap and good food XD

Its like an heaven place and you wont have complains living, working at that country.. No fake kind of people, no cunning kind of people..

At least I believe that there is 1.. just 1 place for me to live in..

Promises.. Such easy thing to say I promise but a very difficult thing to hold on to.. You see, if you give me a reasonable day to end my promise, you help ease my life.. But if you tell me its a lifetime thing.. its gonna be kinda difficult for me to hold on.. sometimes, the fire in you die.. Sometimes the motivation you have fade off.. sometimes, you got tempted into somethings that you forget your promise you hold..

Imagine I still have until age 30+ that i can pay off my debts of having a car, a house to live in, that I feel I have soo much more years to hold on.. Sometimes I wonder if I can hold on for soo long..

What is the definition of "give up".. Stop something completely.. I remember a saying "Its ok to continue walking slowly, but do not give up" or something of this kind.. Sometimes, I think that i have given up in life, but in reality, I think giving up is when you are dead.. therefore I think this is my moment of walking really slowly.. Resting in progress..

I also dont know why am I soo tired.. But I just feel soo tired.. Tired of waking up, tired of opening my mouth, tired of moving around, tired of using computer at times.. I just wanna sleep.. Sleep for very long..

Once you lie, lie it all the way..

Happy.. :)

2010-05-19T03:51:00.000-07:00

I am happy because..

I have soo many wonderful friends around me..

I know how to play the guitar.. :D

I live in Singapore instead of some dangerous country out there :X..

I am able to eat and sleep without worrying..

I have my parents and siblings living around me..

I have 2 hands and 2 legs..

I am able to live independently..

Every wrong steps I made in the past allows me to become who I am today.. :) (And I am thankful for that)

I have all the things I ever needed with me.. :)

I am able to afford the things that I wanted..

I am still 19 and not 90 :X

I won many prestigious awards, and I am really proud of that XD..

I am a left hander XD.. That makes me unique!! :D

I think its the kind of job I am in that causes me to lose the fire to do some things.. I feel sooo darn lazy.. to play my guitar, to read a book, to go exercise, to go meet up with my friends.. Thats why it affects my life, my purpose in life and caused one to be down at times.. Thats why I am going to take a break.. Going to overseas to relax.. going to Australia!! :D

Resting is to allow me to walk a longer journey.. :)

2010-05-18T11:48:00.000-07:00

Its funny when its my first time working with a new company, but it feels like I have been working there for ages.. The kind of people I see are the same.. It irritates me everytime and causes me to hate what I do..

(1) Bosses who only talks and does no action

(2) Clients who are soo fussy over things

(3) New part timers who know no thing!!

(4) Arrogant part timers who commands you to do things..

And many others..

I think I really am a very bad colleague and can forsee I will have to quit alot of jobs before settling down.. -.-'''.. oO well..

I really wonder if I can live with the caucasians in the future?? Because there's another incident that really makes me stereotype them in some way.. Its like asians are being look down at by them.. it kinda sucks to realise about this.. But I hope its just those rich people and not really the town people who also look down on Asians..

There are some qns in my mind that has been bothering me for some time.. But I worry if I asked you, things will nvr be the same again.. Maybe I am thinking too much about it.. Or maybe its just my imagination.. I hope it is..

Are you a colleague or a friend??

2010-05-12T05:06:00.000-07:00

The only place that I wanna be is at home in my room alone.. No calls, no chats, no nothing.. Just peace..

I came to realise some new changes in me quite recently.. I hate to admit it.. But I am becoming more like you.. I really hate it.. But it really leave me no choice.. Emotions get ahead of me soo easily.. I am really soo irritated by everything..

I really wanna pack my bag and leave the country, throw my phone and get a new line, change my account settings and start having new friends, change the environment around me and start a new me.. 2 more years.. Just 2 more years..

PETTY!!~

2010-05-11T04:25:00.000-07:00

Moodless~..

Just needs peace..

2010-05-08T09:36:00.001-07:00

Dying!!! OMG!! Jia You!!!... -.-'''

The hardest thing in the morning is to wake up.. :X

2010-05-05T10:52:00.000-07:00

Crap.. Another overseas proposal plan.. Hmm.. gotta really think about it.. :X

Welcome to my life.. :)

2010-04-30T04:30:00.000-07:00

I remember.. In the past, I always wondered how it feels like doing an event.. Doing a concert.. It feels soo wow!! Soo big shot, soo awesome.. And yap, during my first few weeks of internship.. I was really keen into learning many stuffs, and getting to setup a concert.. That's still a positive attitude towards this line.. :).. As time grew.. People just change.. Somewhere along the line, I start to give that bo chap attitude, that not really that keen to learn new stuffs, that not soo wow when you are actually doing a concert and stuffs..

When some people ask what I study, I simply told them lightings and sound.. Entertainment industry.. They go Wow!! In my mind, I was thinking " Yap, thats what I thought about it last time.." Some people say its a good course.. Some people in the industry asked me why I chose such a course?? There's no future.. In my mind, I was thinking " Ya, why did I chose such a course?? Why am i not like those majority people out there doing finance or banking.. You can go for a degree course which is really useful in the industry, you get to earn more money.. You wont have a night of lacking sleep, and your sun is always free.. You get to go out with friends after work, which you know for sure what time it will be.. You can definitely spend time with family and friends.. :).. You can work in banking and finance for a very long time cause its not physically tiring. Just mentally I guess.. XD

But I still chose this line.. I dont really know what am I going to do in the future.. I have some people asking me what's my next step.. And I seriously dont know how to reply them.. cause I am stuck myself.. This is the 2nd time where you have to make a serious decision.. Cause if it is wrong.. I will waste my precious time and money, and my youth!!.. it just go *poof!!

When my friends msg me for a meetup, or clubbing, or catch a movie.. I was like yeah!!! But there's work I gotta do.. :(.. I really cnt catch up with them.. Cause there's something I got to commit to.. And off goes my friends enjoying themselves, while I am there just working, and waiting for them to release me.. Seriously, only SMSes are the ones that keep me accompany. MSN doesnt for the time being.. When I reach home, theres when everyone is still in their bed sleeping.. And I just got to sleep too, because tmr is another day of work again.. And it becomes a routine until you lost time for friends, you lost time for hobbies, exercise, you lost time to enjoy things in life.. And how long are you gonna continue like that again??

Maybe the only thing to look forward beside friends are taking a long leave and going for a holiday.. Yap!! There's when you can turn off ur handphone and let it rest for a period of time.. Be somewhere where no one will disturb you.. where it really does not feel soo city which reminds you of the place you are working in.. Soo in the end.. Your hard earn money just has been donated by going overseas.. And it becomes a cycle in life.. Oo yar, you dont have to buy any hobbies stuffs, exercising stuffs, nice clothing, gadgets because you wont be alone to use them, let alone have time to use it..

Just 1 more month!! 1 more month of suffering, and I can take a break for a period of time.. Oo yeah.. This is the only thing I am looking forward in life, that is motivating me to continue each day.. That made me feel all is worth it.. :)

Yeah!!! there is no need to rush tmr or pray to lady luck.. Because I just rejected one job offer by Showco.. Sorry Ahmad, for PSing you.. :X..

2010-04-29T00:20:00.001-07:00

I think I just saw the most biggest and beautiful moon in Singapore yesterday throughout my whole life staying in Singapore.. :D..

OMG!! Life is like a zombie this few weeks.. Is like back to the times of my attachment period.. Work, Surf net, Sleep ar ethe 3 major things I do every single day.. And its no different from now.. And I got kinda sian of it.. -.-''' Soo everything is becoming kinda boring again to me.. Yap, hooray for boringness.. -.-'''..

I wonder why do I always play with "fire", knowing that it will burn me eventually.. Trying to give excuses to tell myself, I wont get hurt, I know my limit, I know how to handle the fire, but when it actually burn ur hand, you go Darn, I should not start to play with fire in the first place.. -.-'''.. But even when I stop playing for a week or 2, there will be something, who may tempt me eventually, and there I go, playing with fire again. -.-'''

May is coming.. :).. Faster come!! its like working for ages, and you see ur bank account money keep depleting.. :(..

Oo crap, 1st May is a very risky day for me.. I just have to really depend on luck to get it over with smoothly, I dont wanna disappoint anyone, but even if I do, I try to minimise those disppointments there are.. Soo.. Lady Luck, shine your lucky charm on me on 1st May.. :X.

Those words still lingers in my head..

2010-04-27T12:41:00.000-07:00

Just wehn I thought I will be free on the 2nd of May.. I been book by both Atelier and Show Co till God knows when.. -.-''' Just gotta help them since they needed, and also earn as much as I can before I rest.. :X.. Soo, guess the plans that I promised some of my friends may have to be cancel, or you guys go ahead with it.. :P.. But there are some things that I promise I wont cancel.. That is drinking on the 7th!!! Its like been so long since I drank.. Just gotta cool down with beer after such a long weeks of work.. hahas..

Crap, I think the overseas trip may be a little too over budget.. So I cannot travel around the place I want.. -.-''' Just make it Darwin bah.. Then ownself walk around and see how bah.. -.-''' Got a feeling that I will be nag, whack, say by some ppl.. Just because of my sudden gone kind of thing.. :X.. Not alot of ppl knows I am planning to go overseas.. hahas.. oO well, sorry guys.. You guys have fun urselves, While I have mine.. :).. Crap, why suddenly got alot of ppl are going to the place I wanna go??

I dont know how to find the appropriate words to describe what is going through my mind.. Soo I shall just end it here.. Is it just me??

i cant seem to face you like how I did in the past..

2010-04-25T12:35:00.000-07:00

Crap!!~ Overbudget.. guess its just Darwin.. Go see see how lor.. hiaz.. Walk around aimlessly and see dont know what.. hahas.. sometimes no plan is best plan.. Wahahas.. :X

2010-04-24T14:54:00.000-07:00

Just ended work.. hahas.. Atelier job is really at night man.. Theres pros and cons to that.. Also, the event they do is small, which is good.. :).. but the cable management is OMG!! Must be super neat.. The packing and unpacking of stuffs must be organise!! Soo eveytime we unload the things back in office, we must unpack the stuffs and put back in order. Count all the cables.. OMG!! a 2 hour job just became 4 hours.. totally different working style compared to showco.. -.-''' But the working kind of ppl always remain the same..

I think I think of going overseas until siao already.. It started with Switzerland, then Thailand, the New Zealand, then Australia, then iceland, and now Sweden.. :X..I read from one website that Sweden has the most beautiful girls in town.. :D.. Waaaa!!! Its like you go to a 7-11 and the cashier looks like some model person.. OMG!! Is it true?? The comments that they give for the people living there is quite positive.. :).. Someday huh?? I got to just witness it for myself.. Wahahas.. This cannot go on, it just makes me look forward to leaving NS.. hahas.. Slowly arh..

I got most of my get away trip plan out.. Will update again once I really got the tickets.. Wahahas.. I just need to wait till 5th June before I buy the tickets and stuffs.. Please!! Pay check!! Come to me!! :D..

Soo awkward.. Maybe in the past it happened before.. But it dint really struck my mind.. And now it did.. maybe its different frequency, maybe its different personality.. You have your friends to make your day, and I have mine as well.. Soo lets keep it this way.. Unless ...

Maybe I dislike big crowd..

GOT IT

2010-04-24T03:30:00.000-07:00

GOT IT!! GOT IT!! GOT IT!! GOT IT!! GOT IT!! GOT IT!! GOT IT!! GOT IT!! GOT IT!! GOT IT!! GOT IT!! GOT IT!! GOT IT!! GOT IT!! GOT IT!! GOT IT!! GOT IT!! GOT IT!! GOT IT!! GOT IT!!

LUCKY KID!! LUCKY KID!! LUCKY KID!! LUCKY KID!! LUCKY KID!! LUCKY KID!! LUCKY KID!! LUCKY KID!! LUCKY KID!! LUCKY KID!! LUCKY KID!! LUCKY KID!! LUCKY KID!!

:D

2010-04-22T15:26:00.000-07:00

Arrg!!! These ppl really have no sense of urgency!! Unluckily my hand is still injured!! Or else I wont bother to ask them for help.. Waa!! Seeing others able to carry the flight case down makes me jealous.. :P..Why!!!

Argue Argue Argue!! If you are soo much into arguing, might as well dont talk to me.. -.-.. omg.. What I need really is peace.. And I dont have it these few days.. Spore ppl nagging, dogs peeing.. family at home talking, how I wish I am in some heavenly place enjoying my time alone.. Yar, just like Squidward.. Just peace..

Ok, I was given the green light for one more holiday.. Got a place in mind but the cost is not cheap.. :X.. Gotta try backpacking though I have no idea what it really meant.. :X.. Try to spend as little as possible during the trip?? Plan Plan Plan!! Though things nvr go according to plan.. :X

Oo ya, I thought Australia is like Malaysia, from Darwin to Sydney I can take a bus and reach within a day.. My friend laugh at me.. -.-''' No wonder the train wrote in will take 2 days to reach there. -.-'''.. This is the time where I wish Australia was smaller.. Wahahas..

The 2 teh still kept me wide awake.. oO wait.. its 3, I had one with Joel in the afternoon.. Wahahas.. GG liao!!

2010-04-22T02:31:00.001-07:00

Yosh!!! Working at 11.30pm ltr.. hahas.. Shiok arh!! Can meet up with my friends for teh session today.. hahas. Just met Joel for some chat, and will be meeting Bhood guys ltr for teh session too.. hahas.. Yap.. just the lifestyle I wanted once in a while.. Some teh session cum meetups with ppl living near me.. :X..

Maybe.. I have to reject this one time offer

Handicap.. :(

2010-04-20T11:26:00.000-07:00

Its soo bloody irritating when you can work with only one hand.. And its another bloody irritating when ur their hand is kinda injured too.. -.-'''.. WHY!!?? Sadded.. :(..

Everybodys getting their enlistment letter.. When's mine?? Dont wanna wait for too long.. Not that I am enthu.. But I just wanna complete this 2 years faster!!.. *pray..

I felt soo tired that I just want to lie in my bed forever..

Why??

2010-04-17T11:31:00.000-07:00

Bored bored bored!! Why huh?? Not working then bored.. hiaz.. Work then complain shiong.. I wanna work for small events!! 2 more days to small events I hope.. :X

I suddenly have the urge to go overseas again.. Is there any place that is cheap, not hot, safe and the people speaks english?? Its like a fairy tale man if i am able to find such place.. I used to think that the world is big.. But after browsing through the maps and seeing the countries there are.. I feel that it isnt as big as I imagine.. there isnt much places to visit that are cheap.. that speaks english.. Why is there a language difference?? what the hell!! how to communicate?? Learn their language again?? hiaz.. But I search online for cheap places to visit, and they mention iceland.. And they speak english too as their secondary language.. Maybe I can consider it.. hahas.. $100 = 9000 their currency.. :D.. Go research liao loh!!

Bored.. Why are there no steady friends?? When there are steady friends, they arent the kind of people that I am looking for.. (drinking).. This world is soo much of a weird stuffs.. who wanna go overseas with me?? :X..

Responsibility.. Something that cannot be decrease but always increasing.. if you manage to do something well.. Your responsibility just keep growing.. You will be pushed to do more hardwork.. And when you dont do well.. You get scolded.. -.-''' Ehh.. 1st time do leh.. Give chance leh.. You think I wanna get involved with big stuffs?? Why cant I just do some small things and you just leave me alone??

I dont dislike Singaporeans.. I just dislike their attitude.. -.-'''

2010-04-15T21:44:00.001-07:00

Waaa!!! GG liao!! Theres soo many things yet to be done of Mayday concert.. I wonder how can we survived this last day.. Lightings is the worst!! Lucky I am doing sound.. Phew!! But what the crap!! I was called to control the motor on stage.. After just helping them to control once.. They kept calling me.. eh!! I am suppose to do audio.. Not be a motor controller boy.. -.-''' luckily I wont be standing by for Mayday.. Soo I dont need to do the same shit again.. Stress sia if turn wrongly.. :X.. I think theres a communication error between everyone and me.. cannot understand what they want to bring down or up.. :X.. hahas..

But I gotta admit Mayday event has lots of nice stuffs happening.. The riser moving.. The big transformer moving.. The sphere truss moving up down.. The pyro stuffs.. Big lights.. hahas.. I cannot wait for todays rehearsal.. Seeing the vocalist is like once in a lifetime for me.. hahas.. :X.. Feeling lazy to standby.. Just wanna watch.. But thats impossible.. :(

My only rest day is tmr.. Hiaz.. Must make full use of it.. SLP!!!! So lack of it now.. WHY!!!!!!!! But also good la.. then I will be treasuring my time more rather than just letting it go to a waste.. Wahahas.. Darn it!! Stil got to make a draft for the speech.. -.-'''

oO well.. Wish me luck.. :)

2010-04-12T21:59:00.000-07:00

OMG!! the worst Concert I have done!! I dont even know what day it is today at times.. Had worked for 24 hours straight yesterday.. Stupid Ah Lao la!! Panic then cause us to work more.. Joel was like steaming liao.. hahas.. But the advantage was when we worked for 8 hours till 5am.. We felt quite fresh and weird like we had been slacking throughout the whole time. hahahs.. Today is tuesday.. Left 4 more days till the concert day... Stupid band!! Let us work till like siao... Waa lao eh!! Tiring sia..

It has been confrmed that Jay Chou is coming to pore, and we will be doing it. -.-'''.. got good and bad arh.. Can see him live.. but must work shiong gain.. OMG!!!

Waa lao eh!! What speech la!?!?! Must give speech on graduation day leh.. GG leh.. Must think and write a draft, go for training for my diction in school.. Phew, lucky its only for for my school and not the entire school.. dont laugh at me leh.. -.-'''.. This is totally bullshit!!!

ok.. off to work..

2010-04-10T10:23:00.000-07:00

2nd Day of Mayday completed!! OMG!! 24m of layer setup.. U may think its nth.. Yar right.. Seeing from below is nothing.. Wait till u are on top, carrying a heavy metal bar and assemble the metal bars tgt to form a higher height.. your leg will shiver, ur mind will panic, ur muscle weakens.. You are busy concentrating on ur balance.. Well at least its for me.. :X.. Though it was 9m.. But its quite scary though.. :X

Yosh!! Have u ever set a long term goal, and really achieving it?? I was sooo happy when I actually got my long term goal.. Like all ur troubles just went away.. :).. Yeah!! Dint really thought I could get it in the end.. But I guess I was lucky.. :)

One of the proudest moment in my life.. :)

Short update..

2010-04-08T19:56:00.000-07:00

Guess my work schedule starts an earlier than I expected.. After Clark Quay, its Mayday concert.. OMG!! Jia You Andrew!! Soo I am gonna endure till like 1st of May.. Wait.. Now is the 9th!!!! WTH!!! *Faint..

So I will have lesser time to blog, to go MSN and chat with my friends, to meetup with my friends.. Hiaz.. Work work.. -.-'''

Soo weird working in my company again.. Saw many familiar faces from School like Joel, Michael and Desmo,d saw other company people like Don and Sam.. And Lastly the old colleagues.. Hmm, its like combination of dont know what company like that.. Guess the world is super small huh??

Off to Work!!

2010-04-05T08:48:00.001-07:00

Yosh!! Finally got the 5 ppl you will meet in heaven book.. plus I bought his 2 other books.. Soo I will have soo called Mitch Albom complete sets of books.. Okok, left reading to do.. Read read read.. Bookworm time.. :D..

Caught When In Rome just now.. Not bad heh.. hahas.. Romance Comedy.. Wahahas.. I was laughing soo loudly.. :X.. Thats why I prefer lesser ppl in the cinema.. The cinema belongs to me!!.. But looks like I have to wait for 3 more weeks before catching a movie with my friend/s.. Hmm..

And after 1 month, I finally had an alcoholic drink.. Wahahas..

2010-04-02T11:12:00.000-07:00

Waa!! bored arh!! Thats what happen when most of your close friends enter NS.. the topic they will always be talking about is regarding NS.. And you will just be at one corner listening to their experience, fantasy and alien language.. -.-.. I think I will be like them too.. Darn!! Irritating sia.. Talking about these things to my friends.. Really hope I skip this phase of life and get on with my future life.. -.-..

Life's kinda bored when you are working everyday and doing the same old routine.. It feels like there is no excitment in life and no rewards in life.. you just work, get money, save.. Spend on some things.. And repeats 1000 times.. -.-.. OMG!! And I am feeling like that now.. Just waiting for my 22 consecutive days of working which starts on the 8th of April.. Ya la, at least got 1 day off.. -.-'''.. Its like running a marathon.. OMG!! Never meeting my friends, never going out with friends.. Just colleagues alone.. And I hate the word colleagues.. Its like I have to put on another mask to face them.. And I have like 15 over masks in my cupboard now.. -.-''' Hope I wont wear the wrong mask..

Just found out that Aaron Kwok concert is on the 7th of May.. So on the 5th gotta work liao.. Soo 2-4th will be free.. Please la!! Do sound!!.. *pray!!

Watch Clash Of Titians with Bhood just now.. Not bad la.. At least I dint watch the lightning thief.. Thats why I felt it was alright.. Hiaz.. Movie now are kinda boring.. Waiting for April, May, June for good movie shows.. :X.. Faster!! Then i get my enlistment letter.. Then go in faster!! Then get out faster!! Then start new adventure!! :D

Piang eh!! Too bored!!

2010-04-01T13:20:00.000-07:00

Its soo weird when the place you hate, the person you dislike suddenly leaves you, and you feel that sudden sadness in you.. The longer you are in that place eventually leaves you missing about it when you are gone.. Humans, soo weird..

Yes!! I reject an offer to go drinking today, soo that means, I have not been drinking for close to 1 month.. Oo Andrew.. I am soo proud of you.. Wahahas..

Ok schedule changed.. Soo From now till 7th I will be free.. Then all the way not free.. -.-''' Soo I got like 1 week rest before I go battle la.. okok.. can.. sian arh.. For the sake of money, I cannot believe I am doing this.. Not sell backside la.. -.-''' Think what.. Work lor.. For the sake of my future.. Jia You!!

Watched the tooth fairy online (ya la, I know its a long time movie, no choice what.. Attachment, where got time to watch XD).. The Rock was like a guy who has faced reality.. And I dont feel that whatever he says is a lie.. But you just cannot go around ruining people's dreams.. Destroying kids fantasies.. I guess they got to slowly grow up and realise all these are just fantasy.. If too fast destroy, they will become emo at an early stage.. LOL!!!

Sometimes when i fall, I need someone to hold me up soo that I can stand up again.. :)

2010-04-01T00:32:00.000-07:00

Yosh!! I will be doing sound for Mayday concert.. Yeah!! Finally not lighting.. :).. Sound is so much faster, easier, and wont spoil easily.. No focusing, no changing of lights.. And I can focus on what I always like which is sound.. :)

Why when I just made a decision, someway, somehow, something else appear and tempt me in a way.. When you are tempted, sometimes emotion gets in the way, and causes you to not think straight and do things based on feelings which is soo not right.. Weigh the pros and cons first.. Think about the possible outcomes.. Are you sure you wanna change your decision??

Ok, I am in a holiday mood now.. Its kinda foolish of me to think that there may be a chance that we might go on a holiday together.. I dont really think soo.. Waiting for each other for the money and the free time.. Who am I kidding?? If it was others I will have the thought, yar right.. But I dont even know why did I have that slightest hope that we might be able to go overseas tgt??

Holiday mood..~ XD.. Where next?? Hmm..

2010-03-30T06:47:00.000-07:00

just a few more pages till I read finish the book.. Jia You Andrew!! Quite amazed at my reading stamina, I have been reading like 3 hours?? for today.. Though it may seem nth to u guys.. But it really is a lot of thing to me.. Last time, I think I will read for 15 mins before going to bed.. Soo I am soo proud of myself.. Wan Yee!! Lend me the 5 ppl you meet in heaven!! PRETTY PLEASE!!! Hahas..

I think this is the best book I have read soo far.. I just really like how simple it is.. how they connect the past of people lives and the meaning behind some aspiring phrase..

Forgiveness.. It actually mention inside the book.. Yap, we should let down our pride and vanity and forgive each other, before its too late.. I actually lost a primary school friend.. I am like 20.. And I always expect death among my friends to be at a later age.. But I was soo wrong.. Actually I have alot of things I wanna share with him.. And wanna ask him abt his life.. But..

Soo, I really wanna write some letters to my friends before actually leaving this country in the future.. Apologise some wrong things I have did in life towards them.. And thank them for being a part of my life.. But not now I guess.. Maybe after I am really going overseas.. hahas..

Remember your decision..

2010-03-29T11:12:00.001-07:00

Went to drink teh with Joel, Hafiz, Basyir, Syazwan, Izwan and Yun Wei.. Hahas, first time experience man.. Kinda weird because its a big group I guess?? Then you hear silence in another group.. -.-'''.. Still havent find the right people to drink teh with.. hmm..

Then ltr we went to Yishun Dam to relax, and munch on rojak and famous amos.. Hahas, simple yet one of the memorable times I will remember.. :)

Why is it soo easy to say that you forgive someone, but actually soo hard to do it.. I just wanna forgive you, but at times I remember the past and the negative feelings come back.. I really wanna just forgive and forget.. Can I really let it go?? Why is it soo difficult?? Must I really face a near death experience, to really forget abt all these??

I have been reading Tuedays with Moris by Mitch Albom. I wanna find the book call "the five people you meet in heaven".. I heard it was a nice book.. Hmm, when can I get it.. You know when you faced a near death experience, it is when you see things differently, you will tend to slow down your movements and see things in a different angle.. Stop doing all the unesscessary things and focus on the important ones, because you have not much time left!!.. Meet up with friends, to have a long chat and apologise the things you always wanted to.. Tell them how much you really appreciate them even if they are just sitting down now and chatting with you.. Yap.. I really appreciate all this times with my friends, as I know I wont have too much time left.. I wont know who will be gone or maybe, I will be?? Though it is a negative kind of thinking, but it actually helps me to appreciate my time being spent with my friends more often.. Soo!! Dont take things for granted!!..

A man who is dying is soo much happier than a man who is living.. Because the man who is living tends to focus on the unimportant things in life.. Like work, money, etc.. instead of Love for friends and the community..

Thank you for being a part of my life.. :)

Happy 21st Bday Stephy!!

2010-03-28T10:35:00.000-07:00

Happy Bday Stephy, hope you like the presents and the decoration.. I know you will remember me always because of my picture.. Priceless leh. Dont throw!! Wahhaas.. XD.. Short and sweet I would say abt this outing today.. Yap, I was happy indeed, after all the sudden change of plans in the morning due to my colleagues and family.. GOSH!! Things are not going according to plan in the morning, thank God it did in the evening.. :)..

Yosh!! Its been 3 weeks since I last drank!! I accomplished my mission.. :).. It takes 3 weeks to form a habit.. And I hope it will continue to as long as I can last.. :X.. Soo to replace drinking alcohol, I drink teh.. hahas.. the effects are different though.. hahas.. 1 make me slp better, another keeps me awake.. -.-... hahas.. But it just shows that whenever I put my mind into it, I can accomplish what I set out to do.. Yeah!! hahas..

This is the time where I just want to throw my sim card away and get a new one.. to get rid of unwanted ppl from calling me.. hiaz.. Irritating sia.. its kind of evil, but I guess its better for the both of us.. gotta ask my mum to change my sim card number when I enter ns.. :X..

I wanna thank everyone for walking into my life.. Be it you have affected me positively or negatively.. Because both of them have taught me lessons.. Open my eyes.. Teach me new stuffs.. But also due to that, I wanna stay away from these negative side of friends, colleagues, people.. Because when I see them, I will either be stress, angry, shy, fearful and all sorts of negative feelings.. It just becomes a subconscious kind of thing.. And I really hate it.. Part of it why I am becoming like this today is because of YOU!!!..

But ever since I meet up with some of my close friends.. Secondary school friends, Poly sch friends and also chat with my poly friends online.. :) (You know who you are), I became more open, became more relax, became more happy with life, and I see the person I was way back at poly life.. And I kinda miss that old me.. Though at the same time I really hate being that old irritating me.. :X.. But it beats having that weird silence when you are with friends, that spoil-spot mood kind of person.. Ya, you know what I mean.. Soo, I really dont wanna meet up with those friends/ colleagues who caused me to be soo negative in life.. During NS, looks like its bye bye time.. :).. Hope so arh.. hahas..

Sad to say that you still affect me..

Baby

2010-03-26T23:13:00.001-07:00

Being a baby is soo much better than being an adult.. Do you know that we lost some of the good characteristics of being a baby?? I remember reading a book and they mention that the reason why we find babies cute is because they do not care about how we look at them.. They do not feel shy or affected by how we look at them.. But as we ages we tend to be affected by how others looked at us.. Also, we were once nvr too afraid of failure.. Learning to walk is a good example.. We fall so so many times, but we did not give up and eventually learn to walk.. I think even if my parents werent there to support me, I will still be able to walk eventually.. But look at us now.. Giving up after a few tries, afraid of failures, wanna run away from them and stuffs, instead of facing it head on and never give up trying.. I admit that there are some things in life which I failed and gave up trying again.. I wonder why.. Since when does failure affects me soo bad that I only want success in life.. I only want the easy way out.. I dont wanna taste defeat again.. I dont wanna be rejected again.. It just feel soo demoralising, when you dont get the school you want, when you dont get the job you want, when you dont get the scholarship you want, and many others..

I wanna change my perception of failure.. I wanna see it as feedback.. I wanna see it as opportunity for the future as I am more prepared of whats coming up.. I wanna be that positive, never give up after falling down 10 times at least.. JIA YOU ANDREW!!! You can do it.. :)

2010-03-25T09:03:00.000-07:00

Darn!! 2 cups of teh with Aishah, Izwan and Syazwan.. Now I cnt slp.. -.-'''.. Hiaz.. Who wanna drink teh with me next monday night?? Too bored already..

Overseas studies is soo expensive.. Looks like I have to just find a job and work it out there.. -.-'''.. Acoustical engineering sounds good.. The way Michael tells me sounds reasonable, market is in demand of it.. But!! No money!! Donate to me leh.. -.-'''

Still deciding..

2010-03-24T10:11:00.000-07:00

Ok.. Just face it.. I am lost.. -.-''' School fees for overseas university is soo freaking expensive!! Gosh!! 13k 1 year.. 39 k 3 years.. oO yar, thats in UK money.. wait till u convert to Spore.. 81K!! OMG! How the crap am I gonna work and pay off the debts.. When I pay off I will be like what?? 30?? And I still wont get a house by then.. -.-''' K then, just go and work.. And get a house.. and travel to another country, and get another house.. Soo there will be many little houses around the world, soo I can live around the world.. Hows that sound?? Each house, I plant a girlfriend there.. Hows that sound?? Soo they can clean my house and take care for me.. Hiaz..

Hope someone can give me some advise, hope I can meet someone in NS who has been to several countries, so I can hear their stories and envy them, and then start mine.. :)

Going out from tmr till sun.. OMG!! Its a going out spree.. Money gone.. :(.. Time gone.. :(.. Gosh!! And I still havent utilise my time on something useful this week.. hiaz.. See how arh..

2010-03-23T09:20:00.000-07:00

Waa!! I lost one of my friends' contact and MSN that is written on a piece of paper.. Yesterday I received a call from Thailand.. Wonder if thats the same person.. :X.. But kinda worried if cause got language barrier.. lolz.. Suan le la.. if call another time then pick up.. :X

Collect my passport today!! Yosh.. Went to research more about working in New Zealand.. Wonder how can I survive man?? Know soo little things about overseas.. Their taxes I heard was 40%, so u left 60%, buy house, buy daily food also dont know got enough to survive anot.. Also dont know go which part live better.. Hiaz.. Hope there's someone who has been there before, then can ask more about it.. :X..

University!! Another headache.. Go where study leh?? UK?? USA?? Australia?? Mr Lau!! Need help!! Hope he can offer me some opinion..

Lost for a moment..

2010-03-22T00:44:00.000-07:00

Remember I used to say that when u are determine to do something, there will be this devil who will ruin it someway or somehow.. I was almost tempted to drink last saturday.. When my friends called me to go clubbing, when my colleagues called me to go thai disco.. But lucky.. and really lucky, I had the courage to say no.. soo darn proud of myself.. 1 more week to go.. but I think I will have to drink this saturday.. since its my colleague bday, I promised him to get him a drink.. soo.. 1 day break of promise is good enough I guess.. :X.

Promised.. I broken it soo many times.. Accepting soo many people request of going out, and breaking them last minute due to work.. Feel quite bad about it, so I hoped you guys wont really treat my words too seriously.. I was planning to go on a Malaysia with my secondary school friends next month April.. I may have to cancel it due to Mayday concert.. Hiaz.. See how things go then..

April pack!!

2010-03-20T12:25:00.000-07:00

oO, its been quite some time since I updated my blog.. This week has been a working spree for me.. And seriously, I am kinda tired.. hahas.. XD.. Thanks to Yun Wei, I got to know a new company call Atelier.. Hahas, dealing with small shows.. My favourite.. :D..

After a 2 weeks break everything seems to be getting better and troubles seems to have been solved or fly away to dont know where.. Wahahas.. Now I dont mind going out for late movies, I dont mind eating supper after work, I dont mind night life.. Because I have no more school!! And things seem to be much more relaxed in a way.. :)..

So I still have 2 more new changes of life to go through, one which will be the NS, and the other is either my working life or school life.. If I am studying, I must learn how to balance studying and working liao.. hahas.. I admire those that can work and study and still get good grades.. Wow.. And I need my 8 hours of beauty sleep.. :X

I graduated!! And thanks to the 3 years of endurance and hard work.. I am very satisfied with everything.. :).. I am glad I did not waste my 3 years of poly life and also this is 1 of the proud moment happening in my life.. :D.. Well done Andrew.. XD

Eventually it became sub-conscious.. :X

2010-03-14T11:17:00.001-07:00

Its been a week since I have been drinking.. hahas.. Hope I can make it to 3 weeks.. hahas.. I really hope I can stop drinking like those times and be back to the time when I hate drinking.. Ok, even if I cant.. At least not until that kind of craziness.. Life is already short, and I am shortening it.. -.-''' You know, there's this devil whereby you make a pact to urself or someone, and it will always be there to ruin it.. Your friends may tempt you to drink.. Your colleagues will say they treat you.. Your friends will say its their bday, or maybe just to chill out.. but the sure thing that I will be tempted to drink is when Mr Lau treat us.. Wahahas.. XD.. Just thought of it.. hahas..

Ok, I had my 1 week of rest.. relaxing at home watching anime, taiwan dramas.. lolz.. gotta read books and research on some stuffs to broaden my knowledge.. -.-''' kinda hate to do it at times.. But I guess I have no choice.. its not like there's someone who is a genius and just drops down from the sky, and teach me for free.. darn.. How I wish there is..

Ok, there's an interview for me tmr at sch.. dont really know what it's abt though.. Related to graduation though.. :X.. I hate interview.. Makes me nervous.. And how can I think of the answer in such a short time, and nervous situation.. hiaz.. All the best.. :)

And I finally watched "Breakout" yesterday.. The breakdance moves were great, and the popping and locking.. Omg!! Too powerful le.. The plot was not bad.. Funny, comedy.. Almost like "jump".. But Jump was soo much funnier.. And longer.. -.-''' This show is abt 1 hour 10 mins??

2010-03-11T09:21:00.000-08:00

I think I rest for quite some time already.. so its time to move my butt and go out to work.. Soo tmr, I will be working.. -.-''' Also submit my claim form.. hahas.. this coming days is packed with activities.. Hope I remember what I am suppose to do.. hahas.. :X

I dont understand why.. Its soo easy to open my mouth and talk to some people.. but soo difficult to open my mouth to talk to others.. its like i am affected by the way you think abt me.. the funny thing is it may never occur to you, but it actually occur to me.. such complicated thinking.. suan le bah.. just leave it like that.. no determination.. -.-'''

Maybe I am afraid.. really afraid of failure.. thats why.. it just sums it all.. it just change to who I am today..

Wishful thinking..

Back to Singapore..

2010-03-09T06:58:00.000-08:00

Ok, Back to Singapore life.. -.-''' work work work.. Is this the life left for me?? Hiaz, nth to interest me.. But I rejected work ytd, and they dint call me today for td.. So, I am happy.. :).. Went for a swim with joel ytd.. :).. Been such a long time since I work out.. hahas.. Feels good.. And felt much better not going alone.. :).. Ok, my sis said I grow fatter.. Wahahas.. Time to work out le.. NS!!! Faster send me letter.. I am bored here!!

Soo thats the feeling.. the feeling when you are at a crossroad, dont know whether to move forward or walk backward.. Feeling frustrated at everything.. yap, I experience it.. feeling lost.. I wonder how come is only happens to you?? and not others.. Maybe I am affected at what you think abt me.. :X..

But I took a step forward in the end.. :)

2010-03-07T10:07:00.000-08:00

Keep your mouth shut, keep your mouth shut, go to slp and everything's gone..

You know at times when you are angry, happy, or disppointed.. you wanna shout, you wanna tell someone about it, you wanna throw your troubles somewhere.. But you are afraid of leaking a secret, afraid that it might be leaked, afraid that people may not be as happy as you after you tell them the joy, afraid that you might be a burden to them, afraid that they may be thinking soo what?? Soo, I just keep it inside, go to slp, and forget it the next day.. well it helps for me..

I am still affected by what people think about me.. :(

BACK!!

2010-03-06T23:15:00.000-08:00

Back from Thailand with AVT.. This is not a holiday!! I feel more tired then when I first went.. hahas.. Pattaya was fun.. Beach life!! I tried Para gliding.. :), Jet Skiing and banana boat.. Tiring?? Duh you bet!! But it was worth it.. I nvr had soo much fun since donkey time.. I guess I am still that adventurous sporty me.. :)..

Bangkok?? SHOPPING SPREE!!! Darn!! Bought gifts for Bhood, and family and for myself.. The most shopping I ever did in my entire life!! tiring but I guess I wont have to shop for the rest of the year.. :P.. hahas..

Ok, back to my feelings about Thailand.. Its soo different you bet.. City and Town.. I prefer town area now.. Though toilets are dirty, places are dirty, but the people are friendly. the food is cheaper, lesser conman.. :).. Yap, I really hate Bangkok after going there.. I got conned!! not once or twice kind of thing.. I know its business, people want to earn more money, everyone is cheating.. But I just hated myself for being darn bloody stupid!!! If I learn more about Thai language, if I am more street smart, if I know the way thai culture works, if if if.. hiaz.. Ok la, money can be earned back, as long as I am safe and I did learn something new, its ok.. -.-'''

I just felt this world is soo unsafe.. Everywhere is unsafe.. I just want to lock myself at home and not come out.. My parents were right.. they were concern about me.. I felt a sudden happiness after remembering what they told me before the trip.. :).. I thought I was ready to go overseas, but I was wrong, there are still many things to learn about the world.. I really wonder if in this earth, there's a country safe enough, less stress enough, happy enough, gentle enough, not thinking about money kind of place to fit me in.. If.. If there is one, I really hope I will find it soon, soo I will be motivated enough to continue my journey of life..

Ok, I think I gotta stop drinking alot in Singapore.. :P.. Really hope I can fulfill this thing.. Drinking too much harms my body and my money.. Gotta save up for the future man.. :)

I needa rest some more before I continue to work.. Also gotta start exercising.. :).. Joel for jogging and Hafiz for swimming.. :)

Overseas sick~

2010-03-03T08:33:00.001-08:00

Sometimes I wonder why I even bother.. -.-'''

Last Night :(

2010-03-01T09:55:00.000-08:00

This is my last night at Fang.. I am feeling kinda sad.. Hope everyone in Fang will take care of their health.. WORK HARD!! Hope I can see you guys again..

I wonder if 2 people from different countries who do not who each other language can get together?? Just like Ah-Dam and Ah-Tom?? Hope they can work hard and learn each other language better.. :).. Ok, no more gentle Thai girl for me liao.. -.-'''

Ah Dam just msg me.. Ask me to take care of myself when I am in Bangkok.. Bombings and demonstration of Tharksin everywhere.. Hope I will be alright.. :X.. And of course my poly friends too..

After 2 weeks of rest, I dont feel like going to other country liao.. Just feel like resting and applying my NS faster.. So I can get out faster.. :X.. Human minds sure change quickly.. Save money bah.. So I can go other countries in the future..

Ok gotta slp early, tmr gotta wake up early.. Bey Fang~ I will miss you.. :(

Since when do smiling needs a reason??

2010-02-28T01:59:00.000-08:00

Woah!!!.. XD

2010-02-27T08:45:00.000-08:00

tmr one of my colleague is going back to Bangkok before flying back to Singapore.. Hiaz.. Time flies.. But I actually felt that I have been quite some time at Thailand too.. :P.. Gotta buy alot of Thai CD and put in my handphone.. Lolz!! Some of them are really nice.. hahas.. Wonder when will be the next time I will visit Ah Miao, Ah Tom, Ah Beer, Ah Rai, Ah Dang and Ah Nit.. They have been good to me though at times I was really tired.. Its the thai hospitality.. :P.. Soo different from Singapore.. Wonder if its only foreigners that's why we receive this kind of formality?? hahas.. Neeway, I felt happy la, though at times I feel quite sian.. Not with the place, but with life..

Ok, that sian feeling has come back.. -.-'''.. Just dont feel like doing anything.. Hiaz..

OMG!! I was actually affected by what you said..

2010-02-25T12:51:00.000-08:00

How are you Singapore?? Hahas, food here is really very nice.. I have been eatin even more than CNY.. hahas

Today is my colleague birthday, ytd to be exact.. hahas.. Happy Birthday Xiao Hei!! :).. He bought a gold necklace for the girl (ah-tom), and we bought flowers for him to send to the girl..

Soo its a happening day today, see good show.. OMG!!.. soo funny.. Hope Ah-Tom will accept -Ah Dam!! :) Seriously, I am quite high, and here I am still blogging.. :P

I just receive a sms from my secondary friend.. I dont know if you got read my blog but I just wanna thank you for the sms.. It really made my day. Soo, thank you Qiao Lin!!.. :)

One of my happiest day in life.. :)

2010-02-23T17:37:00.000-08:00

Hello world!! How are you guys in Singapore?? Wahahas.. It's great in Chiang Mai!! Except the place is extremely cold in the morning and in the night..:X.. But I still like it here.. hahas.. cheap things, good, GOOD GOOD FOOD!! Things I've nvr eaten before in my life..

Soo I am living at a place called Fang.. On the way to there, I saw alot of pretty girls.. XD.. Now I know why alot of ppl want to have a thai girl.. wahahas.. At night we went to a pub place for a drink.. I drank something nice.. Its called lao-sa-loon.. or something like that.. its alocohol with cheery for red colour.. there are other colour.. I forgot the green on is what..

Even with my colleagues, we are playing match-making game.. 1 of my colleagues' gf, cousin was introduced to my colleague.. The more I see them the more compatible i think they are.. wahahas.. The reason some thai girl like foreign man, is because thai man when married, will drink and get drunk, and beat wife.. Cannot imagine it.. -.-''' but 1 thing I like abt what they say abt thai girls is that some will really put in all their heart to love you.. And I can see that from her la.. unlike singapore.. -.-''' soo GOGOGO!!

Soo language is a barrier, and I am learning hard to understand how to survive in Thailand.. :).. Kinda difficult, but its fun.. And I fell in love with sme thai songs already.. :).. Omg!! But I know Thailand is not the place for me to stay forever la.. its just place to run to when you need a break only.. hahas..

So I got the feeling back again.. The sian feeling.. Sian because I dont know what to do next, sian because I have nothing to fight for, SIAN SIAN SIAN!! Or maybe its something which I said no, but deep inside I actually yearn for it?? Since I chose to take this path, there's no going back now..

2010-02-20T19:21:00.000-08:00

Ok, this may be my last post.. Wahahas.. Finally!! Going overseas, after countless of grumbling, countless of counting the days, countless of dreaming, and today is the day.. Actually I have been thinking also, why did I want to go Cheng Mai with my colleagues.. Oo well, guess its a good time to run away from Singapore and take a break.. Meanwhile reset my brain things.. hahas..

I really wonder what can I do there.. No shopping centre, dont know got massage area not.. Its a town area.. They say its a dead town.. hahas.. Guess its time to see something different in my life.. This is just the beginning of my adventure trip.. 10 days is nothing compared to the longer, and more adventurous one that I will be going.. EUROPE!!! Ok, my father has approved like finally.. But its the Switzerland one that he approved.. I havent told him about the new planning I made, which is Europe.. hahas.. XD

Waa!!! So many presents to buy!! Lolz, wonder if the guys are bidding me goodbye, or want the presents only..-.-''' hahas..

It has been a really long time since I sat on a plane.. Mood check.. Excited.. :).. I am expecting something new.. Something mind BLASTING!! Wahahas.. Thai girl!!! XD

Goodbye Singapore.. :)

2010-02-16T13:19:00.000-08:00

Ok, I really gotta congratulate myself for not slping at all today.. In an hour more, I will be reporting to work.. -.-''' Needa drink kopi liao.. Need to find night kaki to accompany me in the future le.. haas..

But At least I have a friend who accompanied me through the night.. Wahahas..

Who would expect 1 small person to solve my headache for soo long.. XD.. Who would expect 1 small person who I always make fun of will counsel me.. Guess things happen when you least expected them too.. But at least she woke me up.. hahas.. And I felt much better.. :) Guess I need some time to change it back.. This is going to be a pain in the arse!!

Humans arh humans.. Soo complicated creatures.. Suan le la.. next time think about it..

Thank you Wan Yee!!! XD

2010-02-16T09:58:00.001-08:00

OMG!! I cant slp.. And I am working at 7.30am tmr.. Darn it.. The whole outing with Bhood during CNY has totally adjusted my slping clock.. -.-'''

Ok, 5 more days before I go Chengmai.. Omg!! Cnt wait for it man.. :).. Dont worry, time will pass by very fast because I will be working for the next 3 days.. And I havent finished my presentation.. -.-''' At least I dont have to study during CNY.. hahas..

Even you sensed something's wrong.. Yap.. I sensed it too.. Somethings once you know, it will not be able to be the way it is.. Just like Adam and Eve.. Soo am I.. I will never return back to the days I was..

2010-02-14T02:36:00.000-08:00

Happy Lunar New year and Valentine day.. Woah.. Its kinda weird to celebrate both special event on a day.. :X

Ok I am quite near to my goal le.. Hope I can attain it.. Jia You!!

Yosh!! 7 more days before I go to Chengmai.. :D.. KUN THAI!! Wahahas..

Darn!! Presentation.. -.-'''

2010-02-10T08:37:00.000-08:00

Yosh!! I just submitted my report 3!! I can smell a little bit of freedom and stress-free in the air.. :).. Yesterday and today have been a happening day for me.. I worked for Maureen's company and met an interesting person yesterday.. I was amazed that I am able to wait for a stranger to go back together and chatted quite openly with her.. Or rather, she was more open.. -.-''' She talked quite loud when she mention that she got cheated by her boyfriend.. -.-''' I was very embarrassed at that moment and dint wanna continue that conversation.. hahas.. Aiyar!! Got Bf and is 1 year older than me.. -.-''' Darn it.. hahas.. Anyway, she mention some things which knocked some sense into me.. Like feeling her friends around her are stupid.. In the sense where they dont think much.. I find it quite true.. People in Singapore have many fantasies, or dreams.. but they are just talking big, dreaming about it, and wasting their life and money.. oO well, cannot be bothered about their lives..

A very lucky day for me today.. Today is the day when I submitted my report, an the same day, the other year 3 AVT were having Barbeque, so Shen Li and I joined them.. It really reminds me about the days when we ate steamboat at the LOFT.. Wow!! Speaking of which it happened about 6 months ago.. Time flies.. It really just felt like it was some weeks ago.. I miss those live the other class are having, dont need to worry about their future just yet, dont need to be scolded by their bosses, dont need to work soo hard during work, punctuality is a minor problem, slping time is nothing.. Lastly, Wonderful friends to do stupid stuffs and make you laugh all day.. But I think it wont happen anymore.. You know, working in this line, it just make me feel that some of us have changed.. Some are more.. mature.. some are more vulgar.. -.-'''.. Some are more negative.. Some still bo chap.. And its like we have nothing to talk about except our work, comparing whose work is tougher??.. I dont know, but I just need to meet some positive people I guess.. Or is it just me?? I've been affected..

And thats when I saw Isaac, Miss Lu, and how can I forget?? My favourite teacher, or more like I like to disturb, Mr Lau.. They dint fail me in making me smile, taking away my troubles, catching up with each other.. Really did catch up quite abit.. I am always impress by Mr Isaac and Mr Lau's knowledge.. They are living bible.. Ones who knows about the history, another knows about technology, alcohols, and even countries.. (Mr Lau.. XD).. So we drank abit, and talked about travelling.. Yes!! Travelling!! I am jealous at Mr Lau.. He really travelled to alot of places.. By himself.. And he suggested to me to go for 1 month.. To Europe to just try out.. Now, I got to research even more.. oO well.. I felt soo amazed talking to him.. Though at times, dont understand what he is saying.. Too chim.. Hiaz.. I am missing Mr Lau and Isaac already.. :(

Some people will encourage you to further your studies, some will ask you to go work.. Some will persuade you to not travel.. Some will support you and ask you to see the world.. I just love to hear your opinion about life.. And in the end, its my decision to accept what I think about life and make it my life.. :)

I just realised I have no more topic left to talk to you

2010-02-08T05:14:00.001-08:00

Soo the attachment has ended, and today is the first day of my rest time.. It feels kinda weird staying at home doing.. nth really.. Actually I have alot of things that I wanted to do, but all of the sudden I forgot what it is, and also all of the sudden, I felt that I have all the time in the world, which causes me to be lazy to do some things.. This is the bad thing of having freedom.. No sense of urgency.. -.-'''

Of course, I felt much better after the end of attachment.. My mind becomes more positive compared to during attachment, but less positive than school times.. :X.. I wont deny the fact that working life is a whole new experience for me.. Seeing how humans behave.. Seeing the new side of another life compared to school life.. When I see those guys studying out there, I just felt that they have not yet experience the working hell that they will face.. You know for working life.. Being a book smart is nothing.. You gotta be street smart.. You got to be cunning.. You got to be the evil guy that everyone is, or else you will be eaten by them..

Humans arh Humans.. Such weird creatures.. The ones who can make you have the happiest moment, the ones who can make you have the saddest moments, also, the ones who can make you have the angriest moment.. If everything has an explanation for it, I am still wondering why do humans behave in this way, for different situation.

Dont know what to write.. Quite a number of things that are running in my mind.. but I just really am stuck.. oO well.. just end here..

There's no such thing as reality, on our perception of it

2010-02-02T07:53:00.000-08:00

Suppose to do report today, but I am really very tired and lazy.. Been feeling the same way for the past few days.. Always when I set my mind to do something, another thing gets in my way.. -.-''' In the end, I end up feeling tired and sleepy.. Hiaz..

3 more days to ORD.. Feeling happy, and at the same time frustrated due to report.. I cannot seem to worry abt the report.. Hiaz.. Hope I will be able to finish before 8th.. :P

My colleague suggested me to tour around Europe instead of just sticking to Switzerland.. I was persuaded by him and felt he was right.. In the future I will also visit our European countries.. Why dont I just visit some at one time.. But this means saving up more money.. -.-''' If you have this much money, will you feel worth it spending it on holidays??

I wonder who is the big mouth that keep spreading things about me in the office.. Though it is not lies.. But I just dislike it when its like the whole world knows it, and they are teasing me..

PETTY!!

2010-01-28T08:04:00.000-08:00

Dont know what to write.. Just waiting for files to be uploaded before turning in.. Hiaz..

Got things to be done this weekend.. Report 3.. -.-''' Hope I will get everything done and left a small part of the body by this weekend..

8 more days to end of attachment.. :)

2010-01-27T17:01:00.000-08:00

I dont understand why I believe them when I made the pact with them.. In the end they gave excuses and broke the pact.. You cannot imagine that 'what the crap' feeling I had.. Yeah, its a minor issue, but it just shows that friends do lie to you, friends do break their promise.. Oo well, I just have to place my trust on other people who wont disappoint me I guess..

Woah!! 1 more week to end of attachment.. How time flies!! I remember 6 weeks before attachment end, I was complaining like mad.. I dont know if it is the concert that I have to do, the people who I worked with, or the holidays that I cannot wait to get my hands, noo!! My whole body on.. hahas.. this left with 3 weeks before I go Thailand.. From now till March, there are activities for me to do.. What a busy month for me.. -.-''' My next week will be smooth sailing for me.. I just have to go to Jurong Island to standby.. Pass the microphone, collect the microphone.. Sleep and drink tea in between the event.. Wahahas.. Ok, I can do it!! Wahahas..

Ok, its time for me to do my report 3.. Darn!! Hope I can finished before my attachment ends.. Eh!!! I am already struggling over my free time.. Please spend urs wisely!!! Jealous!!! Wahahas..

2010-01-26T07:12:00.000-08:00

Oo man, just researching about the places of interest in Switzerland makes me excited.. I just cannot wait for the day that I will be able to go.. :).. I am planning around May period.. I hope the NS thing will not interfere my plans.. :(.. Phew, luckily Qutar airways provide cheap air flight. Though its quite Expensive.. Around 1k.. :X..

Soo I only know of 2 places to visit.. They are Zurich and Jungfraujoch.. Ice Mountain climbing.. Yeah!!!! How often can you do things like that.. Ermm.. None in Singapore.. I think adventures are what keeps humans' life exciting.. The unknown and the adventure.. Wahahas..

Think I shall continue my research some other time.. Its late, I gotta report at office at 6.30am.. :X.. Rubbish Work at Jurong Island.. Somebody!! JUST KILL MEE!!!!

The reason I am telling you is to inform you, not to ask for your consent.. :X

2010-01-25T07:33:00.000-08:00

Ok!! I have decided.. To travel to Switzerland before I enter NS.. Soo I gotta save again.. Soo all the list of things I wanna buy have to push aside 1st.. Sry.. I really need that vacation badly.. :(

Staying in SIngapore seeing the same thing is soo darn boring.. I think Thailand will much be soo.. I need something different, something positive.. Like Switzerland.. I saw a picture, where by the town is really green.. Its a town, and its soo darn green.. Not like Thailand.. A town but soo darn black and dead.. -.-''' Sorry for the rudeness but thats what I feel..

I have been doing some research abt it, and are still doing.. darn!! The ticket are expensive.. Hiaz.. and the standard of living at there is high.. hiaz.. Anyway, I think I will be going for a week, soo estimated cost is 2k-2.5k plus air ticket.. Wahahas.. Dont care.. Travel on my own.. Hahas.. Soo I gotta work very hard to save this much money.. Yosh!! Then I would say this is the bravest thing I have done soo far in my life and duh!!! I am scared too.. But what to do.. If I wait for others.. I may end up dying while waiting.. -.-'''

I dont know, what do you feel when u got to build everything from scratch.. I mean the reason why I am able to live at ease and comfort is due to my parents.. I have a roof above my head, have someone to cook for me, clean my clothes etc.. Soo I am soo called having a basic help then I jst make my way there.. Like I started out from level 7.. But what if you started from level 1.. No family to help, no house, new place, new everything.. And you got to work your way up to afford a house, pay your bills, do your household, etc.. The feeling is soo darn scary.. that was what I felt.. What I believe that It will train me and teach me something new.. it will give me that independence that I will get more than others and that satisfaction that no other ordinary ppl will have.. Just one day.. I will be waiting..

2010-01-24T00:46:00.000-08:00

YOSH!!!! I dont know how, but I managed to survive and complete the 4 days of torture for superband.. Honestly speaking this is the most shag and big concert I have ever done.. It was really more worst than Tao Zhe.. Shag!! WOrking over 12 hours for 4 days and 24 hours for the first day was really making me steam.. I also dont know what I am talking at times.. And my colleagues were making fun of me.. -.-''' Small eyes.. Lolz.. Anyway, now I can finally rest a little and slower my pacing.. :D

I managed to see Zhang Zhen Yue and Zhou Hua Jian soo upclose.. If only I could just snap a pic of them.. If only someone invented a camera using the eye.. Hiaz.. My favourite song "Ai Wo Bie Zhou" was sung by Zhou Hua Jian.. -.-''' Darn!!

Lightings and Audio are 2 different things man.. As in lightings are shiong at the start, not that shiong on stage and standby but gotta wait for long time due to focusing and programming.. Audio are not soo shiong at the start, but shiong on stage and standby, and are able to leave earlier than lightings everytime.. Soo different.. Different culture.. I am now more familiarised with lightings, I think I should go back sound now for part timer.. :P..

In the past, when I watched the DVD concert, I used to think that doing all these backstage things are cool and not soo easy.. In addition you can see your favourite stars.. How I wished I was able to do it.. But I was afraid due to the low confidence in me.. Now when I see myself actually playing a part in setting, I felt it wasnt really that easy, not was it actually that fun.. -.-''' But yesterday during standby, when I was supposed to help stagehand for audio.. I was thinking I dont know how long will I take to be as professional as my colleague helping out in stage hand.. He know what went wrong, if got something wrong, how to solve it, etc.. And I was there doing nothing.. Lolz.. And I was thinking that it was quite impossible for me to mix sound for a concert due to that high pressure. Hope I am able to in the future.. :X When your rank goes higher, your responsibility goes bigger plus your money grows bigger.. is there a job where your responsibilty is quite small, but your money is big?? Hmm..

Come to think of it.. 5 months plus was really fast right?? I am really glad I am able to become friends with majority of my colleagues.. Thinking back, I was really trying soo hard to become colleagues and talk to them normally.. But I dont know when for some of my colleagues, that I am to make fun of them and they teasing me too.. hahas.. But I am glad and thankful for that.. It helps make your attachment journey easier.. :) In addition, I pick up some things from them and experience new things from them.. Too many things to say.. :X.. I am sure that my characteristic changed some way or another.. Soo I need a long break to figure things out and change some mind settings.. Where are you Thailand trip??!??!

Another person who pin high hopes on me.. Darn.. -.-'''

I lost my identity..

2010-01-22T11:27:00.000-08:00

Piang eh!!! Thank God its SAT!!! Ok, left the actual concert and the teardown to do before I can have a short break.. Before I continue, I wanna say I am soo darn tired.. This is the most shiong and also the most satisfaction work I have done.. I really done majority of the lightings man.. And to be able to see it light up makes my heart feels soo good and proud of myself.. Wahahas.. :P.. Dont care, next week party liao.. Needa break from this work life.. Wahahas..

I think its really the surroundings that affects me and causes me to change soo much within 5 months.. Now I really dont feel like continuing my university and just go work liao.. -.-''' DIE DIE DIE!! Needa leave this surrounding for a while soo that I can straighten out my thoughts..

Nights World..

2010-01-16T09:42:00.000-08:00

Yosh!! Thats ends the work of this week.. 3 more weeks to Bye bye.. I really need a rest.. And next week superband is gonna be like the biggest concert event ever done.. -.-''' Die!! Lack of sleep again.. hiaz

Its like the whole world is watching me, gossiping my every move.. -.-''' At work, they are making fun of me for going KTV, drinking soo much and vomitting in the office.. Outside, my friends are telling others about it too.. darn.. -.-''' Why do I not have a privacy kind of thing.. I know its embarrassing.. But must the whole world know then its ok?? I just need to place my trust on the correct ppl..

Praises really help lift a person spirit up.. And I really appreciate it.. But if what you say is true.. That when I am focus and wants the thing I want, I can get it.. Then I will be waiting for it to see if it is true.. The ultimate test of all!! To work, and migrate overseas and not stay in Singapore.. Lets see if I am just talking bullshit or really working something towards it.. Now I have left with some options after NS..
(1) Work in Singapore for a year or 2 and then work overseas
(2) Go overseas work
(3) Study overseas
(4) Work in Singapore for a year or 2 and then study overseas

Glad it was a mistake which I made and have learnt after quite some time.. Thanks for the reply.. I really appreciate the msg and really felt soo much better.. I just wanna say THANK YOU.. :D

At least you bother to make a move.. I dont.. -.-'''

2010-01-13T04:18:00.000-08:00

Yosh!! I controlled my temptation and disciplined myself well.. :D.. But But But...

So many things I wanna write, but to make it short.. I wonder why they do this?? For money?? Because they like it?? I feel quite sad for them at times.. :(

Ok, I am threatened.. :X..

2010-01-11T07:27:00.001-08:00

I think its time for me to stop fooling around with nonsense things and start saving money for my future.. Everyone has to grow up.. Why dont start now?? I am going to hit 20 this year soon.. Thinking about it makes me feel.. Old?? Or feels like I should not act like a small kid and go clubbing this kind or go waste money on rubbish stuffs.. Soo, I gotta stay firm on my decision and say NOO to you.. Maybe if it is for chilling, then drinking is alright.. provided its not everytime.. :P

Once was good, and it definitely answered my curiousity.. Soo there wont be a second time.. I must control and discipline myself and not break the promises that I made.. Soo help me my friends if you are seeing this.. :X..

Its time to settle down..

I felt that I disappointed you because of the image you had in me, and I failed to maintain it. I cannot guarantee you the future, but I can asure you that I will really try my best, to not let it happen again..

2010-01-10T11:50:00.000-08:00

what a week!! Its been soo long since I last posted.. last week suxs totally!!.. -.-''' Hope the following weeks are better. :)

I promise my friend that I will smile from monday onwards, which is today.. Soo no more feeling dull.. Yosh!!

4 more weeks to go.. Each day is like a living hell.. Its like I cannot find the reason to continue.. My fuel has ended.. I seriously need a break to think abt things and get my motivation back.. I wonder if my colleagues were part of the cause or what.. hmm..

Guess everyone else are also struggling with their attachment live and are also grumbling.. I guess its not the attachment problem, but is our this line problem.. We are required to stay late and work at an unfix hours.. Soo if you chose this course.. I am sorry.. This is your fate.. hahas.. but this 6 months cannot be compared to the 2 years which I will be going through next.. :(.. Stupid NS.. I wish I could just run to another country and live..

No more 2nd time..

2009-12-31T04:10:00.000-08:00

Guess its just u and me, shadow. Nw waiting for event to start. So boring. Dont even know what I am suppose to standby. Dont wanna ask because all will give stupid ans. Just do what I want can liao.
3 more years to 2012. I wonder if its true. Hmm..

Wow, 2009 Is passin soon. Its really been a fast year man. I guess this year was the most fun year of my life and also most happening. I learn to go clubbing, drink liquor, go overseas with friends, stayed at sch for darn long, get to drive alone, and so much more things I did for the 1st time. Life changing moment for me I guess. But there will be other 1st time things that I will do in the following years. :d

In short, happy 2010 guys. :d stay happy and do something different next year for a change. Its time to plan my resolution for next year and see if my this year resolution have accomplish or nt. Hahas.

What if I havent forgotten all along?

2009-12-30T05:01:00.000-08:00

Wa lao. Nw at capella dont know doing what. Sian arh! Hiaz. The worst thing during working is nth to do. We cnt rest, then dont know what to do sian arh! Lucky theres network at capella, and My phone can surf the net. :D.
Hiaz. At capella theres so many rules. Smoke at loading bay, eat at loading bay, SLP AT loading bay. Use lift must also use workers lift. Cnt use guest lift. I finally understand hows it like to be looked dwn. But its alright. Even lower class ppl have fun in their life. :)
Wa! Gotta spend on things again. Gotta buy tools, bag, camera bag. Sian! I hope my jan pay out. :p.. Gotta save money for my 15 days trip.
Piang eh. Really no motivation to continue till my end of attachment. Somebody just kill me! I am like counting the days man. Dont make me count the hours. Wahahas. Though I know the process of attachment is fun. But I just cnt wait to go for a holiday. Aww..

PS: 5.5 weeks to end of attachment!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

2009-12-25T08:39:00.000-08:00

Just an update before I go to bed.. So I went out with AVT peeps today for lunch.. Gab, Yun Wei, Stephy, Shen Li and Hafiz.. Then chatted about our attachment lives and stuffs.. Shocked to hear some stuffs, funny to hear another.. Happy to hear some stuffs, sad to hear another.. Oo well, we just got to continue with our lives ya?? Soon after I went out with some of the bhood guys.. The others went Genting to have fun.. Hope they are enjoying it.. :D.. I went out with Clement, Darrel and Shevone.. Just dinner and chatting.. Seriously, its been ages since I chatted with bhood guys.. Not like what they are doing, but more like how they are doing.. I get to know more things about other bhood peeps too..

OMG!! I am really living in my own world.. From Primary school till now.. I really gotta admit. In the past, it was naive, now its like I am daydreaming and not observant.. Its really like I am living in my own world.. But thats both a good and a bad point though.. I dint know that there are going soo many changes around me.. LOLZ!!!

1 million thanks Clement for that conversation we had.. I just felt better after it.. He never fails to inspire me.. but this time even more.. I really want to work on my characteristic and not be a bastard.. Work hard on being street smart and independent and at the same time not arrogant and back stab my colleagues. Working is really a whole new level from schooling.. I dont know, I just find that there is something more I wanna find out.. I am not sure what, maybe that is why I am looking at the books, hoping that there is something out there that will interest me.. Maybe 1 day I will find it..

When I am with you guys, the same feelings came back when I was with another group.. I wonder why.. Is it because they dint appear?? Or the things we talk about are really different?? Is like we are from different channels, and what I say may not be interesting to you, same goes for you.. But nevertheless I still enjoy the awkward moments with you guys..

Suddenly I felt motivated to complete my next 6 weeks.. And I have the stamina to complete my 6 weeks and go for my Thailand trip.. Its not just me.. I will be enduring these days with my classmates, with my bhood NS pals.. they are also enduring a tough training for 2 months.. If theirs are tough.. Whats mine?? Just endure a few more scolding from Ah Liew.. Hope he wont scold me and I wont work with the faces I dont really prefer.. :X Come On Andrew!! JIA YOU JIA YOU JIA YOU!!!!!!

We may not have much time left..

6 weeks

2009-12-24T20:24:00.001-08:00

I think I have lost my motivation to continue.. Usually I dont think too much about when it ends.. Usually time just passes from 1 day to another and thus it made me feel that 1 week has easily flew past me.. But I do not know why I have been complaining soo often to myself that 6 more weeks to endure and time is soo slow.. -.-'''

Seriously time passes very fast for me already.. The reason I wanna it to end soon is because of the 2 big concert that is going to happen.. And also 1 of my fierce colleague will be joining to help us.. DIE!! Sure kanna scolded.. This is the period where I hope I can go to sound area, the ppl there are much more fun to be with.. And I always disturb them nowadays.. Wahahas.. But they also tricked me at times.. :(. hahas..

Its good to feel that you have good working colleagues in the company, I would probably miss them.. :(
When I go to another place to work, I gotta build everything up again.. Trust, Friendship, etc.. that is probably why so of my colleagues arent leaving yet?? Because they find true friendship in this company..

PS: I just realised that our company is doing the band Boys Like Girls at 28th January.. I wonder if I will get involved with this or go to Jurong Island to do another event?? Hmm..

Report~!

2009-12-24T19:52:00.000-08:00

Woah!! Its Christmas today.. How I wish it can last for 2 days or soo.. :(.. Anyway, going to meet up with AVT peeps ltr.. Waa liao, the esplanade ppl nvr reply my message.. Lucky still got Hafiz lor.. hahas..

Havent bought ny presents for my sister yet.. Wondering what to get for her.. Female stuffs are hard to buy.. Hiaz.. oO well, at least I have one good female friend out there who can help me.. Right Hafiz?? :X.. If he knows abt this, I am dead.. hahas..

2 more weeks to OT payday.. :D

6 more weeks left for my attachment.. :D

2009-12-24T03:24:00.001-08:00

Yeah!! Thank you Santa!!.. :D.. My pay day has arrived..