I remember.. In the past, I always wondered how it feels like doing an event.. Doing a concert.. It feels soo wow!! Soo big shot, soo awesome.. And yap, during my first few weeks of internship.. I was really keen into learning many stuffs, and getting to setup a concert.. That's still a positive attitude towards this line.. :).. As time grew.. People just change.. Somewhere along the line, I start to give that bo chap attitude, that not really that keen to learn new stuffs, that not soo wow when you are actually doing a concert and stuffs..

When some people ask what I study, I simply told them lightings and sound.. Entertainment industry.. They go Wow!! In my mind, I was thinking " Yap, thats what I thought about it last time.." Some people say its a good course.. Some people in the industry asked me why I chose such a course?? There's no future.. In my mind, I was thinking " Ya, why did I chose such a course?? Why am i not like those majority people out there doing finance or banking.. You can go for a degree course which is really useful in the industry, you get to earn more money.. You wont have a night of lacking sleep, and your sun is always free.. You get to go out with friends after work, which you know for sure what time it will be.. You can definitely spend time with family and friends.. :).. You can work in banking and finance for a very long time cause its not physically tiring. Just mentally I guess.. XD

But I still chose this line.. I dont really know what am I going to do in the future.. I have some people asking me what's my next step.. And I seriously dont know how to reply them.. cause I am stuck myself.. This is the 2nd time where you have to make a serious decision.. Cause if it is wrong.. I will waste my precious time and money, and my youth!!.. it just go *poof!!

When my friends msg me for a meetup, or clubbing, or catch a movie.. I was like yeah!!! But there's work I gotta do.. :(.. I really cnt catch up with them.. Cause there's something I got to commit to.. And off goes my friends enjoying themselves, while I am there just working, and waiting for them to release me.. Seriously, only SMSes are the ones that keep me accompany. MSN doesnt for the time being.. When I reach home, theres when everyone is still in their bed sleeping.. And I just got to sleep too, because tmr is another day of work again.. And it becomes a routine until you lost time for friends, you lost time for hobbies, exercise, you lost time to enjoy things in life.. And how long are you gonna continue like that again??

Maybe the only thing to look forward beside friends are taking a long leave and going for a holiday.. Yap!! There's when you can turn off ur handphone and let it rest for a period of time.. Be somewhere where no one will disturb you.. where it really does not feel soo city which reminds you of the place you are working in.. Soo in the end.. Your hard earn money just has been donated by going overseas.. And it becomes a cycle in life.. Oo yar, you dont have to buy any hobbies stuffs, exercising stuffs, nice clothing, gadgets because you wont be alone to use them, let alone have time to use it..

Just 1 more month!! 1 more month of suffering, and I can take a break for a period of time.. Oo yeah.. This is the only thing I am looking forward in life, that is motivating me to continue each day.. That made me feel all is worth it.. :)








Yeah!!! there is no need to rush tmr or pray to lady luck.. Because I just rejected one job offer by Showco.. Sorry Ahmad, for PSing you.. :X..

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