Finally.. Ok, I managed to complete my first standby without ANY full timer help during the show.. Just me and Desmond.. Guess what?? It was ok, with some cork up and 2 feedback.. But I guess I did well for the first time considering the fact that I am still a newbie to sound.. I really need more experience in this though at times I just wanna walk away from the big amount of stress.. All the people there just keep going to me and ask me for this and that.. Until my name become soo popular.. hiaz.. But I guess I did not really show thatgreat deal of stress and nervousness like I used to show in the past.. :D.. I really admire some of my colleagues when they are working.. They always remain soo calm no matter what the outcome will be or if something's cork up.. I really should learn from them this thing.. Hope I will be able to be like them in the future..

I know what I need to save my money for.. I will be going with my colleagues to Thailand this Feb!! AGAIN!?!?! Yar, I know.. so I can lead the AVT guys better mah.. They introduce me to good place, I intro the AVT peeps lar.. hahas.. Feb 16-21 I think.. Liao lor.. Dont need to do presentation lor.. hahas.. See how lor.. I plan to spend $1500 on both trips plus the air tickets, so basically I am left with $1000 to spend in Thailand.. Should be alright.. hahas.. I will be going to Pattaya.. YOSH!! Finally dont need to wait for another 1 month after I end to go and relax and have fun.. hahas.. opps.. XD.. Ltr I got a new Thai girl then I die.. WAHAHAS XD.. I worry going to Thailand, I will be a changed person.. :X.. Change for the worst..

I hate the word independent at times.. When I see others being able to teach themselves or study themselves and me just feeling soo lazy and tired to read up information and learn by myself, like guitar as well as lighting board.. Seeing my colleague able to self learn the whole board and familiarize with console makes me soo envy abt him.. But looking at myself, I am not that bad either compared to other ppl I know. At least I am not taking allowance from my parents when I am working.. At least I do not take money from my parents to buy stuffs that I want.. At least I am able to go out alone to some place without the need to call friends and always rely on them.. At least I can do some things at work or outside without always relying on others.. But only the self learning part is my weakest of all aspect.. I hope I will persevere and work hard and in the future I can tell others that you yourself can actually make it big without always being spoon feed by others, like the generation nowadays..



At least there are some nice scenes in Singapore.. :D.. Sentosa!!

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