Everytime when I have the urge to write something and it takes quite some time for me to get home to blog an stuff, I just lose the feeling to blog.. Oo well, I'll see how it goes..

So I went and watched movie with bhood.. For the first time I actually dint mind watching a movie twice.. I guess its not the movie, but just the feeling to go out with my friends.. hahs.. Thtas something special that I have just realised.. But luckily we changed the movie, and thank God that we are able to get our ticket changed from "Where got ghost" to "The proposal".. I dint really expect much from this movie at first. Just a typical love stories with maybe some humour in it.. And yap, I was right.. But it is more funny and more better than I expected.. And ya, I saw May while waiting for the moive to start.. hahas.. We were at Bishan GV there.. hahas..

Watching a movie in cinema is really different from at home watching through a small tv or laptop screen, the feeling is soo different.. And watching alone makes the difference too I guess..

If I were a few years ago watching this movie, I would tell myself, why is this guy soo rude to him.. But now, I just feels that this is what I will do to him too.. Sounds bad but yar.. If everytime you tried soo hard, but you see no results, I guess I will stop trying.. Even the strong ones will get tired of expecting something and doing keep something but sees no result and gets nothing in return..

I just dont get the freedom that I wanted for.. If I cannot get it by will, I will get it by force, even if it means doing nasty things.. I just want my freedom.. Freedom to do what I liked, and to just go out and live my life..

If only majority of us can see things in a 3rd party kind of view.. It will make things soo much easier.. Usually we are blinded to see the actions of others or maybe their care and concern towards us and stuffs and we often take things for granted.. Just hope I can open my eyes bigger and see things clearer.. But I am Asian.. (small eyes).. Hehehe.. :P

It usually take some time and effort for you to know someone better and once you do.. Even the worst person living in this world has some good things in him.. And every bad things that he or she may have, you just see it as good or its ok, you just accept it.. And you start to change your perception of this person, and remove the bad impression you once had on him or her.. I admit that even I have so called stereotype some people who I saw just for the first time or who I am not familiar it.. But once there is this barrier breaking thing and you know him or her better, everything will be different..

And yar, I feel comfortable with everything now.. Most of the things I would say.. And maybe in life you really are afraid of changes, afraid it will affect you and also the people around you that you loved.. So I guess I have to wait for a few more years to know my answer and see how my life goes.. If nothing spectacular has changed me and my mindset, I guess I really dont mind it.. But I am wiling to try if there are..

1 more week to exam.. Need to mug soon!! Put all my effort to studying.. Start early so that I can evenly pace myself.. And not be stressed at the last moment..

Will be meeting up with AVTs alot this few weeks.. Watching movie this monday, going to Johor after our exams end, going for a marathon (more like a walk), and I am going to plan one last steamboat or buffet kind of thing before our attachment.. hahas..

Did I mention that this semester was really a blast!! It feels like I was just trying to get used to the Year 3 schedule and the stress difference kind of thing.. And once I get used to it, it is going to end soon.. And seriously, I wanna do alot of things and events that we can get in our course or module, because it is just soo fun and interesting to do and learn.. Like for example, we are planning to record our own AVT song and mix with all our project MTV songs and burn it on a DVD.. But I just do not have the time left.. :(

Oo well, its late and its time for me to turn in.. Till next time.. :D







PS: I am glad that most of the things are getting better.. :)

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