Waa, English songs and chinese songs are really just so different. And who knows out there that there are many talented, and i really meant talented English singers (especially pop, R&B). They sing as though they are drinking water. Its like part of them, so natural yet so amazing. How envy.. hahas.. I was watching American Idol new season i guess.. And I saw this guys who sing very well.. Better than me means well le.. hahas.. But he dint enter the qualifying round.. I dint really know why though but its kinda sad to see him out.. If a person like that is out in the qualifying round. Then I think the standard for American Idol is really too out of my mind!! Too great le.. Wow..

Young and immature?? Yeah definitely.. I dare to admit myself for that. Definitely needs time to change my nature, character and sensibility, and blah blah.. You know the moment I saw the postings, my heart liked dropped.. *ouched.. I dint really care abt it last time.. But why did it hurts this time?? I dont wanna become like that kinda person again.. But at the same time I dont wanna lose. I really need to keep building up myself and every event or setback is definitely a time where I get stronger though it weakens me sometimes though. But heys, this is parts and parcels of life yar? there will sure be ups and dwn in part of our life.. With up, there must be dwn, and that's my dwn. Hahas.. Definitely a good night sleep is something that will help.. Blogger helps too. To write dwn my feelings dwn and to better know myself. hahas. Rather than talking to my teddy bear.. hahas.

Anyway, youtube is a really great website.. for me at least.. I like to find music related stuffs. Especially live, or without instruments singing.. It always amaazed me to see how these singers just sing and exprssed themselves.. I just cnt help wonder what is that formula, beside practise to get that kinda standard. hahas.. Hmm.. Time will tell yeah?? Meanwhile I jsut have to continue my journey until I have that answer. :D

Anyway, today my lecturer finally issued a piece of paper which written abt m=our final semester, whether you want project or attachement, if attachment go where.. I wrote Australia!! then Genting, the others cnt really rem.. I really hope I get to Australia man.. Pray for me!!.. I ws like smiling to myself when i think abt it.. Its just so amazing thinking abt the positive things like new culture, new surrounding, freedom, new world.. I wont be a frong under a well. Maybe get to go bungee jumping. ANd really take a break from Singapore.. From not seeing my friends and family.. Not that they are nuisance, but is actually myself i guess?? I need a break?? need to relieve those stress that a SIngaporean should have.. hahas.. Maybe make new friends in Australia, girlfriends?? I used to watch movies and stuffs and think if maybe some part of the world I am able to find that kinda peace and joy in a country, a place, where it really suits me, and I liked it.. Well, not to say that I dont like Singapore, but just hoping to find a place that suits me best :D hahas.. But of course, they are some problems abt going to Australia like $$, what if I dont like the attachment?? Get bullied, blah blah blah.. Safety concern.. If thats the case i must start buying insurance.. hahas.. jking.. We'll see how bah.. For now, let the lecturer decide on my ranking. hahas..

Never ask me abt sad stuffs because I wanna be happy.. :D I always forget abt the things I do which at times its good.. thats what a book told me.. hahas.. And its my talent to forget.. hahas.. Ok, its kinda late.. Cya.. Nights.

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