I wanted to give up..
I was thinking why did I work so hard for?
Why did I even bother to do?
Does your future depend on just memorising theories?
It is about entering the industry and just practice.

I asked myself so why did i worked so hard for??
then out of nowhere, my mind got the answer.. It seems as though my another self is talking to me..
I forgot the purpose I wanted to work so hard for??
I forgot what i wanted to prove to others wrong..
I forgot that I said I wont wanna work in those things that does not interest me and stay there forever for the rest of my life.
So just these 3 things I decided to stand up again.

I planned my own time table.. For the 17 yrs of my life.. A time table is born.. hahas.. Hope I can really follow the time table.. though many distractions may occur.. it is very hard to be self-discipline. But it is not impossible.. hahas.. I've got ALOT to read. Many notes.. both for studying and interest.. ok maybe not really interest but for learning.. Nvr stop learning right??

I am very happy today.. I have waited for a yr now.. and now I have a girlfriend.. hahas.. NO Lar.. jking.. if that is the truth then u see my msn nick write le lar..

back to topic.. as I was saying, I have waited for a yr to hear the result for my application for a scholarship.. At around 6 months or so, I've given up.. Maybe they are better than me? Oo well. at least I entered my course.. no harm trying.. hahas.. but ytd my dad told me I got it.. omg!! I am so happy.. Teck Choon, Yao Wei, Kai Jie.. Looks like u all gonna work hard to save money le.. I will be waiting till then.. hahas..dont walk back on me hor.. hahas.. Whee Whoo.. I really wanna thank GOD for this.. Thank you..

ANyway I was like struggling for my last week essay.. It wasnt really a gd sign then.. I over write the number of words.. ad the rules state if it is over, 3 marks will be deducted.. my essay was way too over the limit.. I was like panicking after that.. the worst part is I think I wrote too slowly?? that I really dint have the time go through my paper.. lucky teacher was kind, she did not care abt the time.. hahas.. thank you teacher.. I cancel 2 paragraphs just to save that 3 marks.. I m glad I make a right choice.. hahas..
so i passed the essay which is unexpected, but i feel i did ok for a person who is like panicking and dint care about anything as long as he passes.. But it was that gd either.. no nd to boast.. hahas.. it's eng man not maths.. therefore I have to read more to buck up my eng, same for chinese. I have to work more hard for my other areas le.. Thank God..

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