Monday, February 8, 2010
Soo the attachment has ended, and today is the first day of my rest time.. It feels kinda weird staying at home doing.. nth really.. Actually I have alot of things that I wanted to do, but all of the sudden I forgot what it is, and also all of the sudden, I felt that I have all the time in the world, which causes me to be lazy to do some things.. This is the bad thing of having freedom.. No sense of urgency.. -.-'''
Of course, I felt much better after the end of attachment.. My mind becomes more positive compared to during attachment, but less positive than school times.. :X.. I wont deny the fact that working life is a whole new experience for me.. Seeing how humans behave.. Seeing the new side of another life compared to school life.. When I see those guys studying out there, I just felt that they have not yet experience the working hell that they will face.. You know for working life.. Being a book smart is nothing.. You gotta be street smart.. You got to be cunning.. You got to be the evil guy that everyone is, or else you will be eaten by them..
Humans arh Humans.. Such weird creatures.. The ones who can make you have the happiest moment, the ones who can make you have the saddest moments, also, the ones who can make you have the angriest moment.. If everything has an explanation for it, I am still wondering why do humans behave in this way, for different situation.
Dont know what to write.. Quite a number of things that are running in my mind.. but I just really am stuck.. oO well.. just end here..
There's no such thing as reality, on our perception of it
5:14 AM
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
Suppose to do report today, but I am really very tired and lazy.. Been feeling the same way for the past few days.. Always when I set my mind to do something, another thing gets in my way.. -.-''' In the end, I end up feeling tired and sleepy.. Hiaz..
3 more days to ORD.. Feeling happy, and at the same time frustrated due to report.. I cannot seem to worry abt the report.. Hiaz.. Hope I will be able to finish before 8th.. :P
My colleague suggested me to tour around Europe instead of just sticking to Switzerland.. I was persuaded by him and felt he was right.. In the future I will also visit our European countries.. Why dont I just visit some at one time.. But this means saving up more money.. -.-''' If you have this much money, will you feel worth it spending it on holidays??
I wonder who is the big mouth that keep spreading things about me in the office.. Though it is not lies.. But I just dislike it when its like the whole world knows it, and they are teasing me..
PETTY!!
7:53 AM
Thursday, January 28, 2010
Dont know what to write.. Just waiting for files to be uploaded before turning in.. Hiaz..
Got things to be done this weekend.. Report 3.. -.-''' Hope I will get everything done and left a small part of the body by this weekend..
8 more days to end of attachment.. :)
8:04 AM
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
I dont understand why I believe them when I made the pact with them.. In the end they gave excuses and broke the pact.. You cannot imagine that 'what the crap' feeling I had.. Yeah, its a minor issue, but it just shows that friends do lie to you, friends do break their promise.. Oo well, I just have to place my trust on other people who wont disappoint me I guess..
Woah!! 1 more week to end of attachment.. How time flies!! I remember 6 weeks before attachment end, I was complaining like mad.. I dont know if it is the concert that I have to do, the people who I worked with, or the holidays that I cannot wait to get my hands, noo!! My whole body on.. hahas.. this left with 3 weeks before I go Thailand.. From now till March, there are activities for me to do.. What a busy month for me.. -.-''' My next week will be smooth sailing for me.. I just have to go to Jurong Island to standby.. Pass the microphone, collect the microphone.. Sleep and drink tea in between the event.. Wahahas.. Ok, I can do it!! Wahahas..
Ok, its time for me to do my report 3.. Darn!! Hope I can finished before my attachment ends.. Eh!!! I am already struggling over my free time.. Please spend urs wisely!!! Jealous!!! Wahahas..
5:01 PM
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
Oo man, just researching about the places of interest in Switzerland makes me excited.. I just cannot wait for the day that I will be able to go.. :).. I am planning around May period.. I hope the NS thing will not interfere my plans.. :(.. Phew, luckily Qutar airways provide cheap air flight. Though its quite Expensive.. Around 1k.. :X..
Soo I only know of 2 places to visit.. They are Zurich and Jungfraujoch.. Ice Mountain climbing.. Yeah!!!! How often can you do things like that.. Ermm.. None in Singapore.. I think adventures are what keeps humans' life exciting.. The unknown and the adventure.. Wahahas..
Think I shall continue my research some other time.. Its late, I gotta report at office at 6.30am.. :X.. Rubbish Work at Jurong Island.. Somebody!! JUST KILL MEE!!!!
The reason I am telling you is to inform you, not to ask for your consent.. :X
7:12 AM
Monday, January 25, 2010
Ok!! I have decided.. To travel to Switzerland before I enter NS.. Soo I gotta save again.. Soo all the list of things I wanna buy have to push aside 1st.. Sry.. I really need that vacation badly.. :(
Staying in SIngapore seeing the same thing is soo darn boring.. I think Thailand will much be soo.. I need something different, something positive.. Like Switzerland.. I saw a picture, where by the town is really green.. Its a town, and its soo darn green.. Not like Thailand.. A town but soo darn black and dead.. -.-''' Sorry for the rudeness but thats what I feel..
I have been doing some research abt it, and are still doing.. darn!! The ticket are expensive.. Hiaz.. and the standard of living at there is high.. hiaz.. Anyway, I think I will be going for a week, soo estimated cost is 2k-2.5k plus air ticket.. Wahahas.. Dont care.. Travel on my own.. Hahas.. Soo I gotta work very hard to save this much money.. Yosh!! Then I would say this is the bravest thing I have done soo far in my life and duh!!! I am scared too.. But what to do.. If I wait for others.. I may end up dying while waiting.. -.-'''
I dont know, what do you feel when u got to build everything from scratch.. I mean the reason why I am able to live at ease and comfort is due to my parents.. I have a roof above my head, have someone to cook for me, clean my clothes etc.. Soo I am soo called having a basic help then I jst make my way there.. Like I started out from level 7.. But what if you started from level 1.. No family to help, no house, new place, new everything.. And you got to work your way up to afford a house, pay your bills, do your household, etc.. The feeling is soo darn scary.. that was what I felt.. What I believe that It will train me and teach me something new.. it will give me that independence that I will get more than others and that satisfaction that no other ordinary ppl will have.. Just one day.. I will be waiting..
7:33 AM
Sunday, January 24, 2010
YOSH!!!! I dont know how, but I managed to survive and complete the 4 days of torture for superband.. Honestly speaking this is the most shag and big concert I have ever done.. It was really more worst than Tao Zhe.. Shag!! WOrking over 12 hours for 4 days and 24 hours for the first day was really making me steam.. I also dont know what I am talking at times.. And my colleagues were making fun of me.. -.-''' Small eyes.. Lolz.. Anyway, now I can finally rest a little and slower my pacing.. :D
I managed to see Zhang Zhen Yue and Zhou Hua Jian soo upclose.. If only I could just snap a pic of them.. If only someone invented a camera using the eye.. Hiaz.. My favourite song "Ai Wo Bie Zhou" was sung by Zhou Hua Jian.. -.-''' Darn!!
Lightings and Audio are 2 different things man.. As in lightings are shiong at the start, not that shiong on stage and standby but gotta wait for long time due to focusing and programming.. Audio are not soo shiong at the start, but shiong on stage and standby, and are able to leave earlier than lightings everytime.. Soo different.. Different culture.. I am now more familiarised with lightings, I think I should go back sound now for part timer.. :P..
In the past, when I watched the DVD concert, I used to think that doing all these backstage things are cool and not soo easy.. In addition you can see your favourite stars.. How I wished I was able to do it.. But I was afraid due to the low confidence in me.. Now when I see myself actually playing a part in setting, I felt it wasnt really that easy, not was it actually that fun.. -.-''' But yesterday during standby, when I was supposed to help stagehand for audio.. I was thinking I dont know how long will I take to be as professional as my colleague helping out in stage hand.. He know what went wrong, if got something wrong, how to solve it, etc.. And I was there doing nothing.. Lolz.. And I was thinking that it was quite impossible for me to mix sound for a concert due to that high pressure. Hope I am able to in the future.. :X When your rank goes higher, your responsibility goes bigger plus your money grows bigger.. is there a job where your responsibilty is quite small, but your money is big?? Hmm..
Come to think of it.. 5 months plus was really fast right?? I am really glad I am able to become friends with majority of my colleagues.. Thinking back, I was really trying soo hard to become colleagues and talk to them normally.. But I dont know when for some of my colleagues, that I am to make fun of them and they teasing me too.. hahas.. But I am glad and thankful for that.. It helps make your attachment journey easier.. :) In addition, I pick up some things from them and experience new things from them.. Too many things to say.. :X.. I am sure that my characteristic changed some way or another.. Soo I need a long break to figure things out and change some mind settings.. Where are you Thailand trip??!??!
Another person who pin high hopes on me.. Darn.. -.-'''
I lost my identity..
12:46 AM
